Episode 60 | I Grew Up With 3 Moms and 21 Kids: Addi McCall

Addison (AUB Polygamy) on Leaving the Church, Purity Culture, and Religious OCD | The Jaden Jeffs PodcastJaden Jeffs interviews Addison (“Addi”), who grew up in the Apostolic United Brethren (AUB) in a polygamist family with three mothers and 21 children, later leaving the group and marrying her husband Mark. They compare the AUB with the FLDS, discussing differences in dress standards, secrecy and lying about polygamy, marriage/courting practices, leadership scandals, and how publicity like Sister Wives affected perceptions of polygamy. Addie describes family moves from Utah County to southern Utah into trailers, grief after her toddler sister was killed in a car accident, and how that contributed to religious OCD/scrupulosity, compulsive praying, and anxiety. She recounts leaving as a teen, family backlash, homelessness and moving in with Mark, shifting beliefs about God, and later severe health and postpartum OCD, exposure therapy, panic attacks, and learning her thoughts don’t define her.01:39 Podcast Intro Addison Story03:42 AUB vs FLDS Differences06:53 Prophets Power and Abuse07:40 Growing Up in One House10:56 Marriage Courtship Rules13:34 Sister Wives and Secrecy16:39 TikTok Exposure and Lying19:30 Older Leaders and Grooming22:18 Mark and Leaving the AUB27:19 School Sports and Sex Ed31:55 Purity Cupcake Shame33:16 Sex Ed Missing34:16 Big Polygamist Families36:05 Religious OCD Explained38:33 Sister’s Death Trauma44:36 Move South New Community48:14 AUB Life and Doubts50:31 Kiss Guilt and Leaving52:47 Stopping Prayer Freedom54:13 Justifying the Exit01:03:17 Never Going Back Values01:04:46 Faith Doubts and Forgiveness01:05:33 AUB Dating Rules and Boundaries01:07:11 Silence Around Sex and Abuse Risks01:08:30 Parents Belief and Family Grace01:09:58 First Wife Dynamics and Rotating Nights01:12:51 Can Polygamy Really Work01:15:29 Love Equality and Leaving Patriarchy01:16:40 Religious OCD and Identity Rebuild01:19:28 FLDS Ritual Cleaning and Compulsions01:23:41 Postpartum OCD Intrusive Thoughts01:26:48 Exposure Therapy and Breaking the Loop01:29:08 Panic Attacks Feel Like Dying01:33:11 Leaving Religion and Nervous System Fallout01:39:15 Freedom After Leaving01:39:52 Vegetarian Vegan OCD01:42:16 Meat Eggs Exposure01:43:15 Mormons Belief Doubts01:44:44 Questioning Jesus Truth01:46:01 Dads Podcast Invite01:46:52 Psychosis Reality Fears01:48:43 Living With Dad Legacy01:52:05 Religion As Cults01:55:47 Selfishness Morality01:57:15 Afterlife Soul Questions02:00:18 AUB FLDS Kingstons02:03:06 Authenticity Utah Culture02:04:39 Tattoos Pain Tolerance02:06:10 Wrap Up Shoutouts👇**SHOP MERCH HERE FROM JADEN**[fromjaden.com](http://fromjaden.com)👇 **FOLLOW + SUPPORT THE PODCAST**Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3GHUWDyJ5ZJ0QzVu8EihBH?si=hpDUxgqMR9CIkwei0Ghiew🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-jaden-jeffs-podcast/id1795576157✉️ Newsletter (Substack): https://jadenjeffs.substack.com/👇 **MY Website**JadenJeffs.com👇 **SOCIALS**Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/realjadenjeffs?igsh=cm9ybmY1dzk1dmNp&utm_source=qrTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jadenjeffs100?_r=1&_t=ZP-91rDt1rkLz5Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/1BtYdgFoS5/?mibextid=wwXIfr👇 **WATCH NEXT**➡️ Most Popular Videos: https://youtu.be/I-gZtaxMv9whttps://youtu.be/3WIYe15Ostshttps://youtu.be/rNKg83fMuN4➡️ Podcast Playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLk3w3VkHlWzRgsNC_wNeOBxa0AEBnpsCz&si=izu5YMpxghxqO13m👇 **BUSINESS**📩 Contact: [email protected] me a Coffee via Venmo ❤️ https://venmo.com/u/fitoj