Episode 87 (pt 1): "Who will I lose? What will I learn?"

Firstly, if you are someone who is stood with me in support, thank you. Thank you so much. I do wanna say, though, that I would love for you to be nice. Please don’t go haam on this person. I’m already making enough waves here. I’m just gonna say my piece and go. “Turn the other cheek” is a stupid rule. That’s what I was raised on and that’s why people keep fucking me over. Im gonna do things my own way now. You get to hurt, too. I don’t get to be the one who takes all the pain. You get to hurt, too. She said, “Kye. I know you have the tendency to get scared and run. Hell you did it once already. I promise I’ll be nothing but good to you. You can relax. Please don’t run. It would kill me if you ran.” so I promised I wouldn’t run… and she ran. Listen. There’s a reason I wanted to upload this. It’s not fair that people are targeted and abused and tossed aside and made to feel disposable when we some bad bitches with (mentally) fat asses. I know so many beautiful souls who walk this world feeling unworthy because they had a few Meatloaves in their lifetime just goin’ haam on good people for their own amusement. It comes from a place of pain, but that is nobody else’s problem. Do you hear me, baby? It’s not your problem. You are not responsible for your Meatloaf, whoever that may be or have been. I’m a lucky one. I am very aware that I am a lucky person. Mine didn’t last long at all. Like at all. Mine was mild at the most. You’ve been through a lot more than I have and I know for a fact that your stories make mine sound absolutely comical, but I also have no idea what my Meatloaf has done to those before me. There’s no telling what she’ll do to those after me. If she hadn’t ghosted, I probably would have tried to find some way to fix these patterns of hers, but they were never mine to fix. I wouldn’t have been successful. Yeah you got a sad story, but baby you steady tryin’ to wreck people man fuck you. Stop causing yourself and others more pain. You won’t. You won’t stop. Yo where Lemony Snicket at? I’m sorry that was fucked. My heart will always go out to you. It shouldn’t, but it will. Trauma is a motherfucker and i’m educated enough to know that. Also ya boi has all the messages to back everything I said. Everything I said. You do not get to abuse people and get away with it. Someone will speak up. The truth will always be brought to light. I’m done being kind. I’m not going to be so kind today. Okay so anyway here’s the tiktok https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRcYVfSx/ And here’s the playlist. 😊 https://spotify.link/N0mPX9meEyb