Erotic Touch Class Party Experiment Gone A Dry

I took an erotic touch class then stayed for the party after. An experience. Pleasant. Eye opening. And concluded, I if were to be a slut I would need to dissect the heart from the body; orgasms from strangers are not a thing for me. I don't even want to desensitize my heart to keep trying to have heartless orgasms. I think I'm too on the spectrum, a heart to heart connection helps me get out of my space, sharing this beautiful experience of connection deeply with another. It was a good time. I was the only solo female out of only 3 of us. The two men that gave me the erotic touch were great communicators and took care of me with making sure it stayed just the 3 of us. They asked what they could do for me after my orgasm which reminded me to get back into body, they even held me and rubbed my back when I cried. My orgasm was a long intense release, primal noises from me I've only heard one other time when play person gave me one. And he certainly was in my head every now and then with more questions about his connection to me and realizing the church no longer affecting me I didn't feel guilt. In fact it felt good to have the space to explore, free from guilt to decide yes I am in fact NOT a swinger. I am not a solo exhibitionist, I would absolutely love for others to witness the energy play person brings out of me when I worship him. There was no piv and I had no desire to worship another. Erotic touch with strangers without orgasms for me would be ok to do again sometime. Thanks for being here!