EPISODE · Dec 13, 2025 · 4 MIN
ESSAY December 2025 - Daily Surrender, Steps 10-12 - Bachan, India
from ESSAY Magazine (An International Journal of Sexaholics Anonymous) · host Essay Magazine
He learned the difference between white-knuckling (reliance on self) and true surrender (reliance on God). When I was still deep in my addiction, I thought I knew how to interact with women: I performed, I craved, I hunted for the thrill of being wanted. I called it “romance” and “connection,” but really, I just wanted to be needed and admired. Lust, in every form, ran the show.
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He learned the difference between white-knuckling (reliance on self) and true surrender (reliance on God). When I was still deep in my addiction, I thought I knew how to interact with women: I performed, I craved, I hunted for the thrill of being wanted. I called it “romance” and “connection,” but really, I just wanted to be needed and admired. Lust, in every form, ran the show.
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ESSAY December 2025 - Daily Surrender, Steps 10-12 - Bachan, India
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