Faith Audio Arsenal | Not Far

We’ve been talking all week about being near.Close to truth.Close to the Kingdom.Close to Jesus.But there’s a line we don’t talk about enough.The one between:* Agreement and surrender* Understanding and obedience* Near… and inThis song is about that line.Because “not far” sounds encouraging…until you realize it still leaves you outside.LyricsNot Far[Verse 1]I been close, yeah I know the linesQuote it clean, got the right repliesHead full, got the facts on lockHeart still saying, “yeah… maybe not”Talk faith like I live it outSay “Lord” but I rerouteNever left, never ran awayJust conveniently stayed halfwaySit in church, nod real deepHighlight verses I don’t keepGot the look, got the vibe just rightBut I ghost Him Monday night[Pre-Chorus]I ain’t far, I can see the doorFeel the pull but I want controlStanding here like I’m doing fineBut I know I’m stalling at the line[Chorus]Not far… but I’m not inRight there… playing edge againClose enough just to feel okayBut still one step awayNot far… hear You calling meTruth cuts through what I wanna beI can’t stay where I’ve always beenNot far… I’m stepping in[Verse 2]Say I’m good, I’m a decent guyDidn’t steal, didn’t cheat, didn’t lieGrade myself on a sliding scaleLike “pretty good” is gonna prevail“I believe”—yeah, I say that quickTill belief means I gotta submitGot opinions I won’t releaseCall it “growth” when I keep the leashHalf in, half out, nice and neatGot one foot in eternityOther foot where I want controlTrying to crown my own soulFunny how I call it faith—but it’s my plan[Pre-Chorus]I ain’t lost, but I ain’t foundStill guarding what I won’t lay downStanding close don’t make it mineIf I never cross that line[Chorus]Not far… but I’m not inRight there… playing edge againClose enough just to feel okayBut still one step awayNot far… hear You calling meTruth cuts through what I wanna beI can’t stay where I’ve always beenNot far… I’m stepping in[Verse 3]What’s it worth if I stay right here?Safe, controlled, and insincereCall it faith but it’s dressed-up fearTruth is knocking—I just don’t hearKeep saying “soon” like I own timeLike tomorrow’s guaranteed to be mineStanding still but I call it wiseMan, I’m really good at spiritual liesNo more spin, no more pretendNo more “close enough” againIf You’re Lord, then it’s all the wayNot my terms, not another day[Bridge – Spoken]You can know every verseDrop every referenceWin every argument…and still not follow HimThat’s not depthThat’s trivia with a halo[Verse 4]Gave it up, yeah I crossed that lineNo more “mine,” now it’s all Yours, GodHands open, what I used to gripFell apart when I loosened itDidn’t lose—man, I finally sawWhat I called life was a shallow drawNow I walk what I used to quoteTruth ain’t theory—it’s what I wrotePeace hit different when You’re in controlNo more split, now a single goalWhat I feared was the cost to payWas the very thing that cleared the wayAll in—not halfway anymoreNot just standing at the doorWhat I thought I had to defendI surrendered… and that’s where life began[Final Chorus]Not far… no more delayI won’t stand here another dayAll I held, I’m letting goYou said come—so here I goNot far… now I’m stepping throughNot my will—I’m choosing YouNo more edge, no in-betweenI was close… now I’m in This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit scbailey.substack.com/subscribe