Hey guys, it's Jacqueline, the founder and host of the Neo Premiere Project, a platform that believes in growing the numbers of women of color across all media. That's why this podcast was started and now it's gone on to a video series on IGTV. Currently, if you're not following us on Instagram, please make sure and head over to that. So you can check out our two new projects, one of the first one being Quarantine and CUNY, where I talked to Women of Color about the Quarantine Experience, and on this current one that we got your back series, which features Men of Color.
I actually created it for Men's Health Month, but after the murder of George Roward as the following month ago, I decided to use this platform to give a voice to Black Men, so we as a community could support, get educated and allow Black Men to tell their stories, as well as how to highlight their art and their businesses. In continuation to that, today we have Carter Piggie, an actor and model in San Diego, he's performed in several theaters around the city, he attended San Diego State, for theater performance, he talks about representation in theater, toxic masculinity, showing emotion on screen, self acceptance, and what it means to grow up as a young Black woman in Milwaukee, and of course, that's always much more. I hope you enjoy the end of the day. I'd say the most recent time I questioned everything was when I was in high school, because very much like you, there was a period in my life where I didn't know where I was going, I didn't know what I wanted to do, and I was just so confused because I looked around and there were so many other people that were doing the same thing, doing something that they loved to do.
And I was just contemplating like, man, what am I here for? What am I on this earth to do? What is my main purpose? And I wanted to find myself, that was my ultimate goal, coming out of high school, was just to find where I fit.
Because in high school, everybody, that's the prime time to find yourself, is in high school, and everybody wants to see where they fit, what niche they fit in, what piece of the puzzle that they're able to fit in life. And that's what I was just mostly trying to figure out. What I didn't know was the piece was right there in front of my nose the whole time, and it took me a while to actually find that out. But once I did, everything was worthwhile.
I always knew, and I always had a passion for my craft that I do right now, which is acting. I've always had it. People would tell me, since I was a child, or they would just watch me do something. It wasn't even acting per se, it would be something else.
It would be like, I'll be talking, just talking to them. You're like, you know what, you got it. And I'm like, I have what, you have it, you just had it. And I'm trying to wonder, what is it, what are you talking about?
What is the it that I have? And I'm still trying to figure that out and develop. I know that I'm not fully developed yet, but I have found a really general basis of what that it is. And part of it is, my craft, part of it is me being an actor.
And me just having that notion, it just comes so effortless for me. Of course, it took me a while to do that, took me while to find that, because in high school, I tried everything. I tried so many sports, so many things, because in Wisconsin, where I grew up, being an athlete was the number one thing. So if you were an athlete, you weren't really considered, you know, you didn't really fit in anywhere.
And because I wasn't an athlete, you know, I tried, I did sports, but I wasn't like the best athlete out there. I tried to hold my stuff to so many things every single year, so I went through certain things. And it just wouldn't fit. I just wasn't comfortable, and it just didn't satisfy me, didn't make me happy.
So it just so happens that, you know, I happened to come across this audition that they were doing my junior year. And I got invited to the audition for it, so I decided to just do it, because at that time, you know, I'd done little plays and stuff here, and then when I was younger, but I never fully, it was a while since I actually did a production. So of course, I was nervous. I didn't know what was going to happen.
And I'm like, you know what, I was going to go ahead and try it and see what happens. And in that moment, you know, once I finished that audition, and you know, I found out that I got the role, not only like the lead role, but I got the lead role in my very first attempt. That's when I was starting to figure out like, hmm, maybe this is the it that I'm talking about. Maybe this is what I'm supposed to be doing the whole time.
And fast forward to when I'm doing the show is I'm not a log member. And when people would talk to me after the show, after I delivered that monologue, they were just blown away. They would tell me they would say that, oh, you know, maybe cry, like, you made me have this kind of emotion. Like, you just captured the audience in that certain moment where you were on that stage.
And at that moment, that's when everything clicked. And I started thinking to myself, this is what I need to be doing. But before to further answer your question, yeah, the last time that I felt that sense of what am I doing was at time in high school before I found acting. So you talked about like knowing and owing it.
And I think for a lot of us, and you also talked about how it's with Triya. And I think for a lot of us, it's kind of a gift for people to own that earlier in life. For a lot of people, I think they're still searching and they're still waiting for it to click. But I think within all of us, we know we just don't know how to own it.
And so through is such a gift for you to have gotten that in high school and for it to for you to own it. And then that just clicked for you. If you go back, like, what was that knowing? Like, where were some of the few hints and kind of just walk us through what that looks like for someone that made me searching or maybe someone that's already clicked for them, but they don't own it.
So kind of walk us through like, what was that knowing? How did you start owning it and like, what clicked? You know, it's funny that you said that because I was just thinking that all the times that, you know, people would give me, I'd get certain hints. You know, God was sending me little certain like subtle messages and stuff through other people.
And again, like, I wouldn't know I would overlook it because I'm like, what are you talking about? Like, oh, you know, because one of the biggest things is my dad. My dad was one of those people that will always give me those hints. You know, we were watching one of my little sisters.
She was in production. She was in a musical about pirates. And we were sitting in the theater watching her. And after the show, me and my dad were walking out.
My dad was like, hey, you know, she did a really good job. I'm like, yeah, she did. He's like, well, have you ever maybe considered going back to that? Like going back to what?
He's like, you know, going back to acting before me. You know, he would always say stuff like that kind of like, you didn't make me, but he would always try to put me in that direction. He would say something that got me thinking like, hmm, you know, that's the one thing that I haven't tried yet. That's the one thing that, you know, I have the most experience that I've done most of my life.
And, you know, why not give it a shot? You know, it wasn't just him too. It would be other people. There was a competition I used to partake in in middle school called forensics, which is pretty much another word for public speaking.
And there was a certain category I did. It was a comedy category, solo humor. And so I would always, you know, I would pretty much be acting, but it would just be one seven minute monologue. And just the feedback I got from that, like, you know, wow, you just so really on stage, like you make us laugh so much.
Like you have this really charismatic presence. And that's another word that gets tossed around a lot. I hear a lot of the word charisma that I'm very charismatic. I'm very, you know, I got that Midwest charisma, you know, the last show I was in.
One of the reviews was like charismatic Carter Piggy strikes again, you know, that word charisma bounces around a lot for me. But yeah, it definitely there's been a lot of hints. There's been a lot of, you know, words of encouragement from other people. And that altogether, you know, push me in that direction that maybe this is something that I should try again.
Yeah. So how did you, I know you're saying that other people, I think a lot of the times when we don't own it within ourselves or we're not like spirit or the members, whatever it is that you believe in that's trying to guide us there to help us. It does it through other people. How do you or does someone really know it know it and how did you start to own it?
I probably say, well, even with that role in high school, again, I knew about it, but I didn't fully own it. So I'd say the time when I really fully owned it was when I became a professional because then I knew, you know, there was a certain role I got. And it actually was pretty recent. That's why I'm not thinking about it.
You know, I really had to think about that because again, I do plays, but I never really owned it because I wasn't as kind of a person. I was confident in myself then, but with each role, I grew more confident. So I'm saying the time when I was most confident in myself was the last role that I was in, which was Hispanic, Christmas at Pemberley, North County, when, you know, I not only was in the show, but I was the guy. And once, you know, I saw the reviews about me, once I saw that I was on TV, you know, on KUSI, once I saw that, you know, I had a big billboard in me in front of the theater.
You know, once I started seeing all these things happen, you know, my confidence skyrocketed and also, what also helped is I was able to balance it too because I was able to do that. And I had to work my day job and I had to work that morning and then I had to drive 40 minutes to Carlsbad for rehearsal. And I had that happen every single day. And yeah, it was draining.
I'm not going to lie, it was very draining. But in that moment, I feel like, you know, not only did I earn it, but I owned it at the same time. And it's like, you know, I am a competitor in this business and I'm here to stay. So I ain't going nowhere.
So, you know, at that moment, I fully owned that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. This is what I will be doing the rest of my life. So it definitely sounds like you took some action and then outside of that, you started seeing like what they talked about like a manifestation of the work that you've had already put out there. So, my, I always ask all of like, creative and always looking at stuff up, you can position, because I love to like, and I love seeing like others, creative their process that inspires me in some way, you know, how they get into that zone.
So for you, because you are working with a job and then at night you are who you want to be, right? Obviously you have to sustain yourself until this sustains you. What is that process for you to get into these characters and kind of like, believe that work. But like, what is part of your process to get into that character because I've seen you act and it's like you're this totally different person.
You're in this character show. Can you tell us like what is that process for you or even part of the process to get you into those characters. What are the biggest things I do is I, you know, kind of just stay, get myself some alone time at first. You know, I'll take a dedicate a couple of minutes just to free myself of any thoughts.
I'll just sit in my room or I'll sit in the car before I go to rehearsal. I just close my eyes and I'll just, you know, just kind of stay in silence for a couple minutes. And sometimes what that does is that helps with just clearing my mind out, helping me focus on what, you know, I'm supposed to be doing, help me focus on the character, what the character wants, what the character needs. I want to completely shift my mindset.
So I no longer think about Carter in that instance anymore. I think about what the character is. So, you know, Carter starts no longer exists in that moment. Carter starts no longer appear.
You know, I don't think about work. I don't think about, you know, any drama that might happen in Carter's life. I think about what goes on in characters life. And when I sit in silence for that moment, that definitely helps me.
Another big thing is do music. So what I do is I get a playlist together of all these songs from certain eras, or depending on like, for example, with Pemberley, Christmas at Pemberley, I listen to a lot of classical music. So I had a lot of Beethoven on this playlist. I had a lot of Johann Sebastian Bach.
I had a lot of the Valdi. I had a lot of Amadeus Mozart. And, you know, a lot of classical music in that era, or depending on what area it is that I'm playing it. So, but with that music, I feel like it helps because if I hear the music, it motivates me to further get into that character.
And I usually always listen to it. I listen to it before I go to rehearsal. I listen to it on the car. When I get to rehearsal, I listen to it during the breaks, or sometimes I go listen to it before I go on stage.
That's what that was my thing for Pemberley a lot. I would be in the back room backstage getting ready for my costume. I had my earphones in and I'd listen to classical music. And I would think, you know, what does my character want?
What does, how would he react with this certain songs playing in the background? One of the things that I do, I think I was probably the big ones. Another thing right before I get on stage, I'll say a quick prayer. And then I put my finger up to the sky.
And then I say show time and I get on stage. That's literally what I do right before I get on. That's I do it every single time. That's like a habit I do.
I'll say quick prayer, put my finger up, look up to the sky. And then I'll say show time. I actually really like this process. I mean, not even as much of you're an actor.
I think if you're an entrepreneur or a creative or whatever you're trying to do. I've been trying to get into meditation and being more consistent with it. And I even had someone on other bits that we talked about staying still and being in silence and how hard that is for people because sitting still, we're always trying to make things happen. Right.
And sitting still and kind of just sitting with it is such, it's hard, especially when you've been talked about if you have trauma, how hard it is to sit still. And I like the fact that you've talked about like letting go of Carter, like his thoughts no longer matter in this moment. Like what is the character that I want and how can I get into that. I think you can even use that process.
I'm going to use that process when it comes to us being who we are meant to be who we're working towards because there's always this talk about the being instead of I'll be that person when I get there. It's actually where we just start being that person. So I think that's going to be really helpful to people out there to sit in this and kind of think of yourself as this character that you're trying to be and how you can embody that when they talk about manifestation. They talk about taking the actions of the person that you want to be.
So I think this is going to be so, so helpful. Another question that I had for you is that I noticed that you take on a lot of roles that are for people of color specifically obviously for men of color. And I wanted to ask you like, is that something that is important to you or just resonates with you or is that something that you're intentionally doing and if so why. Well, I think it's incredibly important, incredibly important for men of color to have our own representation in theater because you know for so long, you know with the history of it, there's been so many times you know especially even now.
With the Oscars just being over there's you know you'll really see a lot of representation of people of color and a lot of nominations and a lot of that you know and the same thing with theater. There isn't a lot and there's not a lot of men of color that are in the theater space, even in San Diego to begin with. So I think those are especially important to get that representation out there. And you know and also is inspiration for you know for somebody who might be trying to come up just be just like me, you know a young boy trying to become an actor and theater who is he going to look up to you know who is he going to want to inspire to be or you know what roles where he wants to be in the future.
So I think that's especially important because you know if they look at me for example and they see that you know we have these strong men of color in these roles and they're not just the step and fetch it roles because there's a difference you know there's a difference between a step and fetch it roles and strong and we want to play the strong roles and that's what I want to do I want to play the strong roles ones that are that means something. And that's especially important I think because of the younger generation especially you know I just want them to be able to look up to something in the future. And you know that's my ultimate goal as an actor is to raise up the younger generation and inspire other people you know that you can do it too you know if I can get out and make it out and be successful then you can as well. So I think that is especially it's equally important to have that kind of diversity and you know I want to play as many of those roles as I possibly can in my career.
So for those who don't know what step and fetch it can you just really quickly tell us what that is. Yeah yeah I figure somebody's not going to know about that but basically the roles where you know they're not the men of color aren't strong roles they're not in that kind of light where they can survive on their own two feet. You know there's a lot of slave roles that are like that where you know they're just like they're pushovers they want to do whatever the other person tells them to do particularly the slave master or you know their roles that aren't they're almost in a way where they're not really as you know confident men you know they're not real life men that can deal with you know they have their own problems and have their own you can relate to a lot of other people. They're mostly roles that are very you know under me and they're very then the roles aren't really strong.
I feel like that's the best way to put that. And I think that we actually talked about being an inspiration for boys and some kind of going to go back so you said you're from Milwaukee and I'm trying to fit in. And I think that's a lot of the time a lot of inner right a lot of inner cities is basketball football you know sports scholarship is like one of your way out a lot of people like really admire that instead I think we're not feeling enough about entrepreneurship or creative work artists are like. So I want to go back to that about fitting in about being a boy in this environment and what it means for you for someone for a man of color typically to go into acting and how.
And I think a lot about that because I think it's just part of a bigger question because I've started to know it's just in the last few years that they're showing men have a lot more emotion on screen like men crying men really believe like things like the one thing that comes up is like queen sugar. The guy is something happening with I forget to get a centered on it but you know his hand is yelling at him like kind of like get your shit together you have a son or you have a child and he's you know this beautiful you know masking like as he would say black man and he gets very emotional you know because you can tell that he is trying to be a good dad but he's still young and he has his own struggles and mind you he's that same as he gets all these emotions that come in his eyes start watering up and he starts crying and just from that I mean I'm not a man I'm a woman that I remember as a parent being young and struggling with your own like identity and your own sense of like responsibility and at the same time trying to be the best parent and not measuring up and here's your family like yelling at you. You know and in that like I could see like I can feel his emotion and it was just so nice to see you know a man of color like get emotional and cry because usually you'll see women on screen you know again emotional and but to see him cry to start seeing more like men of color like showing their emotions and seeing that you know those emotions on screen I think I've started to see the difference how important it is for us to see our men have emotions and cry and see them you know crying other than because they're hurt physically. The question is like talk about being this young boy in Milwaukee and wanting to fit in and then deciding that you were going to do theater like what was that like for you.
It was definitely a struggle you know not only was it a struggle within myself finding out who I was but also you know again that pressure of fitting in with other people especially because you know Milwaukee is just so interesting because Milwaukee has you know so many you know underlying issues that are swept under the rug you know one of the key issues that it has is there's a huge racism issue and there's always has been but nobody really talks about it you know it's not as discussed as often as it should and there are certain aspects in the city that really heightens it like for example you know the neighborhoods are filled with defacto segregation you know in my neighborhood in the north side it was mostly black and or like Asian population and then on the south side that's all the Tino you know on the east side it's all white mostly and you know that's what kind of separated that and that's why it was kind of a sculpture shock when I moved to California because I would see all these neighborhoods in California and they're all diverse you know what I'm just like wow what's going on like this is crazy because in Milwaukee that would never happen or if it did then look at you funny like when you go over here you know like if I went over on the east side I get all these looks I go suburbs get all these looks like you know and it's kind of funny because I went to school in the suburbs I went to school in the suburb of Brookfield which is 20 minutes away from the city. And you know I used to play ball with some of my buddies at school and I'd always have to come out to Brookfield they would never come out to Milwaukee due to the hype always how dangerous it is look how you know I don't want to get jumped or shot or anything like that and I'm like look man like you don't know that I have a greater danger of going to suburbs then you do in my city or my neighborhood you do realize that right. So you know there's a lot of stuff like that you know and I was subject to a lot of those problems especially going in high school in suburbs you know I would get it from you know white kids because again I was just like a little bit of a little bit of a problem. And I was like it is because again I was black obviously so you know there are a lot of racial jokes a lot of racial undertones that I had to deal with but unfortunately also I'd have to go home in my own neighborhood.
And the stigma there was you know oh you know you think you better to be because you know you're trying to do this or because I was smart or because I wanted to succeed I wanted to get out. And unfortunately a lot of people in my neighborhood don't make it out or they don't make out in Milwaukee they don't finish high school you know the average ACT score in the Milwaukee Public Schools is 19. I got a 24 which isn't the best but it's pretty good 24 is a pretty good score but if the average is 19 and that's just the average because there's something that even below average you know it's crazy and it's not their fault either you know that's the system that is purposely trying to do that in Milwaukee the educational system in Milwaukee is constantly cutting funding for all these programs you know after school programs all these theater programs that you know help students succeed you know they cut the ACT program so that they can't get assistance even if they wanted to on the ACT. You know looking back I was very blessed because my mom wanted to put me in that suburban school as opposed to the Milwaukee Public Schools because she's a teacher she taught in the NPS for years decades and she knew what was going on and I feel like I was very blessed and very fortunate you know to go to that suburban school and get that education that I needed and that knowledge that I needed because that so many people do need.
And of course the stigma is still there you know being a theater person as opposed to being an athlete again you get that you know the underlying stigma of oh you know like you can't do that like people thought that it was it just wasn't the right thing to do especially as a black man and then answering your other question about showing emotion you know again that's a very interesting subject for me because you know we were taught in the neighborhood not to show emotion and again as black men were taught not to show emotion even if we're hurting which I think is ludicrous but it's just something that we grow up telling our sons and you know even with me I had a hard time becoming emotional on stage I've only cried even with the role set I was supposed to cry I would never actually cry I would make it look like I was there's only been like two times where I really really cried on stage and that was because there were some other things going on and that's when I had to kind of reach back and kind of break my rule of completely getting out of my character and out of Carter and going into the character so I had to reach back and grab some stuff that Carter went through and put that into character. The biggest example of that is Blood at the Root. There was a play about six football players who were charged with attempted murder after getting in a fight in Gina Louisiana and it's loosely based on those true events but I play with the football players and you know he has to take a plea deal either you get a plea deal and plead guilty or not be guilty and face up to 15 years in prison and I'm in jail my character is in jail at that moment and I'm just contemplating thinking about this like wow all this stuff I'm doing mom telling me that telling all the rules I still end up in this mess in this situation. You know there's a monologue I do and at that moment I started thinking about that thinking about all the stuff that my brothers went through thinking about all that kind of stuff and that all on top of that there was something else that happened.
In Milwaukee there was a race ride that happened early that summer and I was thinking about all of that and all that came down on me at once and that's when I just let it out on stage I cried. But other than that yeah we're not really taught to show that emotion but now I don't mind it as much and I don't it's easier for me to do that because now I don't really care anymore. Because back then you know I still cared about what people would think they're oh you know I didn't want them to think that I was soft or anything because I'm crying or they don't want me to be able to. But if you do so but now I am now on a lot more comfortable with it and it's something that I think that a lot of many to be more comfortable with.
So talk about that how do you become more comfortable with showing emotion especially I think for you I mean one thing is to show your emotions to your friends. But the thing is to be on stage and you know or to be on television showing these emotions and coming to terms with like not caring like what does that look like for someone that how would you say that to someone who is younger and was raised around this you know idea especially for like Brown and Black men right like for us Brown men have this much more than they have to be tough and if stuff goes down like you have to take care of the family mind you they're like 10 when they're being told isn't like what is all this pressure on like 10 I just had this conversation with an uber driver about him being like you know and his mom saying those things to him like you're the man of the house and he's like 10 you know and him feeling this pressure not too emotional growing up. So I think that's what I think about being with someone how would you say to someone who is younger or is trying to get where you're at like hey man how do I become comfortable with my emotions and how do I just like start showing that. Is there a process or how did you kind of like break it down how you came to terms with that.
One of the biggest things for me was just to come into terms of myself and get to know myself better. You know get to know me as Carter and get to know you know become more confident in myself in my abilities and just loving me falling in love with me. And I feel like once you fall in love with yourself it's not going to matter what other people think if you do certain things you know because I feel like a lot of the times where I would be affected by that was because I was insecure in my own self. And in my own identity of being a man you know and not knowing that it's okay to cry it's okay to show your emotion.
So first thing I would say yeah just you know be comfortable with yourself learn to love yourself. Learn to find out you know what it is that yourself likes or yourself enjoys you know just look in the mirror every day and you're like you know what you are a man regardless. Regardless of what anybody else thinks you know you are a man and you can do it and you are worth it and you are loved not only by you but by other people you know like I got to constantly talk to my little cousin about this because my little cousin is going through that he's 13 right now. And again he's struggling with that so I said you know man first you gotta just learn to love yourself looking in the mirror every time you wake up and be like you know what I love you and look at yourself in the mirror look at your own eyes just tell you I love you tell yourself that.
And I feel like that definitely will help with that. Another thing that I do is I like to you know just look back in our history and I look back and just look at all the historical figures you know history teaches us a lot about you know who came before us and just the strength that they had. So that also motivates me to know that a lot of the stuff that people talk about now you know it's bull. There's no specific example I would get messed with a lot you know I didn't think that I was a black man because I didn't sack my pants because you know mostly because I was scared that my dad was going to be my ass.
But another reason why I decided not to look back at the history and I was like wait a minute you know would MLK sack his pants when he gave the speech on Washington DC you know would not go make sack his pants when he went to the mosque in Harlem and he started speaking with maker Evers. He was marching to Mississippi you know I just think about all these people and even even further back than that like you know we come from just a strong group of men and it just would be ridiculous to throw that all the way you know looking like a buffoon with your pants halfway down. It's like I just it kind of clicks and it's like wait no that's not us that's not us you know and just think that's not you being a macho but she's on it no if that's not you that doesn't have to be you don't have to be something that should not. You know and learning to embrace that again it's a journey I'm not going to say it's easy because again I'm just now starting to do that and it took me a long time to get out of that mentality because that mentality of being macho has been grained into my psyche.
But I can slowly chip away at it by learning just to love myself and learning to accept myself as who I am. So these people go back and talk to you know think of like the hardest times in your life that you've had. Like only who you are like what would you say to now like now that you're able to look back and understand that you're able to understand that you're able to own it. What would be some advice that you would give them.
I would tell them to just don't give up. I would tell them to keep doing what you're doing that's what my dad used to tell me when I was a kid keep doing what you're doing. Just don't give up. Don't give up.
You know I know what you're feeling right now. I know you're depressed. I know you're contemplating suicide. But please don't give up.
Don't give up life. Don't give up hope. You know I love you. Other people love you.
You're surrounded by love. You know we need you here. You know because you're going to do great things and you have a plan. Guys got a plan for you.
It's all laid out for you. It's all mapped out for you. Just keep doing what you're doing. Don't give up and just learn to love yourself.
What do you love the most about Carter? I love the fact that I love my adaptability. I've always had that talent. I can adapt to pretty much any situation.
You know no matter what comes my way I'm able to face it here on. I'm able to be like you know what I may not know what to do at this moment but I was going to try it anyway. And you know I do it and once I do it well I'm like okay cool. We're on the next day.
You know and I don't know how I'm going to do it but I'm going to try it. I'm going to do it anyway. That's what I've done a lot in my life. I also love the fact that I have a great sense of love for my history.
Looking back in the past and you know researching what's going on in the past and I use that to go through life now. And you know I have a great love for history. I always have. History was my favorite subject in high school.
You know I love the knowledge that I possess from learning from history and I love the fact that I can hit you with random facts of information that are completely random. You know you don't know where it's coming from. Like for example you know there's four types of animals in the llama family. Like you know.
Another thing that I like about myself is you know again this is something that I'm slowly trying to embrace because for the longest time I want to embrace it. But it's the fact that I'm a very kind person and loving person. And again it's taking me a while to fully embrace that and I'm still to be perfectly honest I'm still trying to because there's moments that I have where I feel like I shouldn't be. The way I react in certain situations I feel like that's not how I should react.
I should react out of love for somebody. Sometimes especially when somebody does me wrong. But I love myself for that because I feel like that makes me stand out and that makes me harder because I feel like it's just something that nobody really does me want to do. And that nobody really does anyone nobody's really kind you don't see a lot of kindness anymore.
And again I'm not trying to sit on a high horse and nothing like that saying that I'm you know the kindness person out there no I'm not trying to say that I'm saying that something that I observe that and what other people say I just have a lot of love for people have a lot of love for different things. Just I have a lot of love period. I've always had that just a lot of love and you know. Yeah.
How do you take care of your entire? I take care of him by being him sometimes. So I love I just like to let loose and you know be a kid. I sometimes go and do my favorite things.
I just never forget those times that's the key thing for me I never forget the happy times when I was a kid. For example you know I'm sitting here drinking a caprisse on right now. I think about the times I used to do that you know I get home from school and I turn on my cartoons and I drink a pre-suna and eat pepper sandwiches. Remembering is a key for me thinking about those times and just focusing on the good thoughts and focusing on the fact that I really was I had a great childhood.
You know I was loved by so many people I still am loved by a lot of people and you know my household I didn't have to deal with a lot of you know. A lot of violence not you know no aggression no just none of the stuff that is very very hard on a child. A child with a child shouldn't have to go through. You know I was blessed enough not to do that and you know I could be able to go outside to play and imagine and you know pretend to be different characters.
And honestly that's kind of what fueled my love for acting too is because back in the day I used to do that all the time I used to think there was a time where I didn't have any toys right so I had a pencil in my hand and I had a hanger. So I look at the pencil and I'm like you know what I'm gonna make this pencil an action figure. I made a pencil into an action figure. He was a soldier and then I took the hanger I'm like this is gonna be his horse.
So I'm parading around my bed my mom goes into the room she's parading and she sees me parading this pencil around with a hanger. And she was like go ahead and then she closes the door. But I think about that I could take anything and I could play with it because that's how big of an imagination I had as a kid you know. And I just think about that and that's how I really replenish my inner child because in a way he's still there.
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