Ghost

I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved I don't think I've ever felt remotely as close to this And I don't think I'll ever be missed I sat in a hospital bed as my heart had begun to fail Although it was only my anxiety calling, I prayed that I would live Then again, sometimes I hate everyone and also myself I've accomplished nothing, not proud of becoming, a slave to the feeling of death And why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost I witnessed those in love like a movie scene in slow motion All the happiest parts strung together like a scrapbook, as if nothing bad had happened And it makes me wonder if I've been alive, or capable enough to survive I'm trying so hard just to smile, but I what I really need is someone to know that I'm lying Why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved