Happy 100

From time to time I think, “Might I run out of things to write about?”And my next conversation yields 20 delightful sparklesThat feels sustainable, and relies on relationshipCreation never stops offering us newnessAnd commitment to the felt sense lets me receive itNot just think about itIt is in the wholeness of my beingThe whole of my body, my thoughts, feelings, stillness, breath, inspirations, and growing painsI meet myself and the moment and the symphony of lifeBecause the body belongs to the world and knows itCan hear its whisper in the breathAnd while I don’t stay in this sensitivity all the timeBut when I do, it’s time richly spentAware. Noticing. Connection.And I’d like more of my day anchored in earth, gravity moving through me, nature arisingNot in the meanderings of culture, chaos and crueltyThough those are there, tooAnd practicing hosting all of it, but not letting my wonder become anemicAnd so I practiceAnd the practice reveals feelingAnd feeling leads to relating softlyTo myself, to you, to those I meet and the world at large.In a way, I made this my job all these yearsWhile i was looking for what’s nextI’ve been studying with mindblowingly wonderful teachersAnd brilliant, loving co-studentsAnd practicing.All. Day. Long.Simple sensing breathsIt’s been very rewardingIt’s paid bonuses beyond benefits packagesMy friend asked today the relationship between happy puppy/sad puppy and my job searchAnd I realizedThe job search has elicited sad puppy feelings in me 92% of the timeAnd still I tried to move toward itThis work, weaving these offerings of many other people’s work and my own experience,This has always been my happy puppyThe first job search advisor I hired asked what I really wanted to doI said, “Honestly, I just want to sit with people and talk about god”He suggested I go back to school for theologyBut that’s a claustrophobic house for my GodMy sense of divinity is every iota of every cosmosExploding forth as natureAnd every one of usThe mechanations of culture are loud and crucial, but they’re happening in a larger contextThat’s what I want to exploreAs you’ve let me so gracefullyIt’s not the kind of thing that runs outThank you for being here with me these first 100 postsI’m moving towards Happy PuppyI’m feeling clarity and potentialYour witness has made a differencePlease accept my deep appreciation. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit fallingtenderly.substack.com