I came to realize I was completely powerless over the disease of addiction.

Cydney's addiction came out through self harm at a young age. She had her first drink at age 16 and when she drank it became a form of escapism and there was no controlling the quantity... it was lets see how far we can go so I don't have to feel the way I am feeling.She started cutting herself in eight grade and it was a release for her. When she felt she needed to punish herself for every mistake she did, she would use that as the way. Dealing with her depression and mental illness as well as her addiction, which progressed in college following a few things that happened within her family, she just wasn't able to handle it. It became apparent she needed outside help, and once she joined a 12 step program and really dug in and understood why she is the way she is, it truly did help her. She found a Higher Power that works for her and found the path to recovery.