I just don't really think that working in the mental illness paradigm is energetically good for me

I wanted to continue on with what I was talking about yesterday today is a good day to make videos because there's not as much traffic noise I think I've decided I want to quit my new job I just don't really think that working in the mental illness paradigm is energetically good for me logically I'd love to participate and be able to work to logically slowly but surely make change but I think that's slow because it's appealing to logic and its trying to oppose the logic of the system that's already there and words competing with words is sort of a very slow process and it feels strange because at this moment I'm still staying well I'm still managing to stay well and there would be me withdrawing at a point where I'm still well versus waiting until I go downhill in a way it could be good because I'm quitting when I'm at sort of the pinnacle of my career in peer support not that I won't continue with it in another fashion it's just I don't know if it fits well within the mental health system and even if it does I don't know if I fit well in that role in the mental system because I really don't feel it's helpful for people to be pathologized like that and of course they have the recovery movement and things but within the system it's still about here's your pathology now recover from your pathology we just gave you instead of starting from a different point and I'd rather start from that different point I think because being immersed in that other viewpoint doesn't really allow me to arise in relationship as I would like to so i talked about how in certain states of consciousness we more so arise in relationship we are what we arise as in that relationship so by being related to the mental illness paradigm I'm arising in relationship to that and it's in contradiction with my belief system and my value system and not that there's not a place for that but it to me is weakening it weakens me at weakens people and and so if I was to participate in some different that was more strength based I would be able to arise in relationship to that strength based paradigm or experience or situation and I love it when people are doing well and doing strength-based positive things that really gives me energy and it's not that people don't do that within the mental illness paradigm it's just it's just a different reference point it's just a different vantage point and and it just it really bothers me I think maybe largely in part because with all this self dialogue that I've done I just really don't believe that because I don't believe it of myself so I don't believe it's true for other people even if they believe it's true I don't believe even if there is an element of truth I don't believe in labeling people so early maybe if people were given open dialogue for six months and then labeled maybe most people wouldn't need a label at that point or their label would be lesser and they would get appropriate help but there's such an emphasis on this immediate labeling of people in order to get them on the immediate medication and doesn't mean don't put someone on medication to calm them down or keep them able to to be able to hold whatever experience they're having while moving towards new context and understanding and dialogue but people aren't given that our d so they're medicated and basically told to be quiet not really told to be quiet but there's no real listening ear that's where I think something like emotional CPR could come in very helpful as well as I was even thinking it'd be cool if a bunch of people were trained in it to have an ecp our day we're on a certain day people could come and speak to people in the ECP our way and then that person will be able to practice their ecp our skills and to really create a community of practice and a community of dialogue in that way so even if certain people who came to be the people receiving the ECP our ear they would start to think in different ways just by the way the dialogue was happening and