I Lost My Mum To Cancer And It Destroyed Me

On this episode of Keep It Private, Millie is opening up about the most personal thing she's ever shared: losing her mum to lung cancer, and everything that came with it. She takes us right back to the beginning: being 14 years old, dancing in the living room after school, watching her mum and stepdad pull up outside — and knowing instantly that something was very, very wrong. From that moment, through the years of treatment, to the heartbreaking final weeks during Covid... Millie goes all in on the full story. Nothing is left out. But this episode isn't just grief — it's growth. Five years on, Millie reflects on how she actually processed (and avoided processing) it all: the first six months of going through the motions in a strange autopilot state, the partying phase that followed, and the eventual breakdown that forced her to finally face it. The bigger lesson? Grief isn't about the person being gone — it's about having so much love with nowhere to put it. Millie talks about redistributing that love and touches on impermanence, spirituality, and how losing the person she loved most completely rewired the way she sees the world. If you're struggling with grief, or you've lost someone and felt completely alone in it — this one's for you. Don't forget to subscribe and catch new episodes of Keep It Private every Wednesday! Follow Keep It Private with Millie T Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@keepitprivatepod⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@keepitprivatepod⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@keepitprivatepod Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices