i think there are all these religious people talking to elon, that turned him away from being interested in me. i dont really want to write their names, because it gives them more attention, but the way this went, all of them acting like they dont know

i think  there are all these religious people talking to elon, that turned him away from being interested in me.  i dont really want to write their names, because it gives them more attention, but the way this went, with all of them acting like they dont know me,  to me it is kind of like a gang rape. but it is pretty much any famous religoius person you can think of.  robert morris, kari jobe probably gave him advice on how to marry shivon instead of grimes, i get that vibe, kind of girl  competition like that, i dont think kari jobe believes she did anything wrong  , it is the only explanation for why they are still doing these things,  probably pretty much any famous religious person. i think francis chan,  matt chandler who is discombobulated from brain cancer, lecrae, may be the worst of them. any of them, joel smallbone all those guys.  just kind of they all ganged up to give advice to elon  but were like    yea  you shouldnt talk to that girl that got on line   after gateway           the reason lecrae is listed is because he is friends with someone named tedashi.   i lived with a lady named barbara douglas a long time ago. it was a very bad situation. but after awhile, she told me she knew tedashi and his family because they lived down the street.  she asked me if i wanted to meet them.  i told her no.   i am not sure if she followed up with tedashi to tell him i didnt want to meet them, but if tedashi and his family noticed me, and asked barbara to ask me if i wanted to meet them, and then i said no,  i have thought maybe tedashi may have targeted me because of that.  she told me that tedashi and his family lost a child to drowning in a pool. and after the gateway thing happened, i wondered if they lost their kid because of some gossip they were doing about strangers they didnt know.  at that time, because my belief system was different,  i did wonder if their gossip about me   got their kid killed   as some kind of payback kind of thing for harming strangers like i think elon is a gimpy armed retard at this point    i didnt think that before.  but with all these folks like being in elons ear for all this time now and he kept like hurting me because of what they would say or tell him to do,  it has gotten to that point though.   elon is not a child,  but i think they treated him like he is a child. and maybe he is kind of intoxicated by how they treat him    but it doesnt work because he goes out there to like hurt people   when they treat him like that