Identity crisis, might help finding identity

Week 186 15.05.2022 10:45 PM Sunday I also started doing free life coaching online for strangers, I think I'm good at it and I'm following my format. I want to build my expertise and skills and apply things and be more in touch with life. I also am going to soon start as a child companion for impaired children (beeinträchtigte Kinder).  I woke up at 6 for three days in a row, the dreams I had were interesting, like delayed lights. And did one muscle group per day really well. I plan on keeping that up. I think I'll wake up early and do the workout from home tomorrow (back). I have a pullup bar so should be fine. It's because I want to go to the office tomorrow. Not home.  Praying. There can be answers in prayer. There are answers in thinking. The question: Do I continue reading the book? Or do I sit down and think through my own thoughts, in the only way that can be relevant to me?  Be the agent of chaos. The path will move how it needs to. And if you think you are an agent of it in any sense, you will simply continue.  Prayers and best. Khalid