I'm here to help you the most

Am I able to make a list of new rules to follow, rules intending to enable the best available life outcomes for myself, and then proceed to abide by said rules for even one 24 hour day without finding a reason in that day to declare these new rules are completely invalid? Well, no, I do not believe I can do that.Because this world, this version of infinite Earth, this one can leave you thinking things that make all the rules seem irrelevant, for whatever reason, and can have you talking to dots on electronic maps before you know it ...especially if you tend to let things get out of hand. And boy do I have the potential to let things get out of hand...seriously. I kid you not, go listen and see for yourself if you think I exaggerate.AND THEN, ALLCAPSTYLE, I wonder why I...wonder why... do any of you lovely treasure boxes of human manifestation... why would any of you NOT believe that you deserve a better life? SERIOUSLY. I do wonder about this. Like...a lot. Seriously wondering... Probably too much if I am honest about it.So what about me? Well yeah, of course...probably... but not much more golden showering needed over here right now... certainly not anything recorded. What I mean to convey is that I kinda like what I've got going on atm. more or less, and I don't want to expect better for me than I expect for thee... well a job maybe, but no rush on that!My attention to be helpful is focused outward...... and apparently toward you. You're the one who can't see how much hope remains available to be realized, even now, unsettled as you are on this version of Earth.Rather than deciding it's not worth getting involved, I ask that you reflect for a moment, consider why this circumstance is a reality you're willing to accept, in fact embrace for yourself. What am I missing?If that isn't a question worthy enough to ponder...well, I have others.In fact, so totally full of questions am I that I seem not to know anything at all any more. And I'm okay with that. It's not like I'm waiting on an answer to these questions right here or anything stupid like that anyhow...Um, slightly off topic here, but is this commentary now longer than the actual recording? It's certainly possible. It took a lot more time and effort than whatever I said earlier, that much I know. This is why raw, unedited splatterchatter is my path to truth. No beautification efforts whatsoever, just ugly old me and my unanswered questions.late4werk.aginEpisode 3 of 53