이사야 64.5b-7 pointing to 기도손

2. 내 삶에 적용 오늘 본문은 지속되는 하나님의 침묵 아래 놓인인간의 철저한 절망과 영적 무기력을 적나라하게 보여준다. 5b절에서 기도자들은 깊은 좌절감 속에서자신들의 타락이 마치하나님의 진노와 침묵 때문인 것처럼 탄원한다.  그러나 이내 6절을 통해, 인간이 자랑하는 최고의 의조차하나님 앞에서는 ‘더러운 옷(월경하는 여인의 옷)’에 불과하며, 스스로를 통제할 힘조차 잃어버린 채죄악의 거센 바람에 무기력하게 휩쓸려가는‘시든 잎사귀’와 같은 비참한 실존임을 고백한다.  결국 7절에 이르러, 생명의 근원이신 하나님이얼굴을 숨기심으로 삶의 모든 기반이 해체(무그)되는이 비극의 원인이 그 누구도 아닌‘우리의 죄악’ 때문임을 뼈아프게 직면하게 된다. 이러한 본문의 고백은 스스로를 구원할 수 있다고 믿는우리의 모든 교만과 환상을 산산조각 낸다. 우리는 종종 남들보다 나은 도덕적 삶이나종교적 열심을 나의 ‘의’로 삼아 위안을 얻고, 이를 하나님 앞에 내세우려 한다.  깨어 있는 파수꾼이었던 기도자의 눈에 비친 인간은, 스스로 죄를 통제할 수 있다고 착각하지만 실상은 죄악이라는거센 돌풍 앞에 이리저리 끌려다니는철저히 타락하고 무기력한 존재일 뿐이었다. 진정한 파수꾼은 이 답답한 침묵과 영적 해체(무그)의 순간에하나님을 탓하거나 타인을 향해 손가락질하며 정죄하는 데 머물지 않는다.  오히려 “우리는 다 부정한 자 같아서”라며무너진 공동체의 죄를 자신의 것으로 껴안는‘예언자적 연대’의 눈물을 흘린다.주의 이름을 부르지도, 주를 붙잡으려 스스로 분발하지도 못하는이 영적 무기력의 한가운데서, 우리는 우리 안의 죄악을 온전히 직면해야 한다.  내 안에는 어떠한 소망도, 구원의 근거도 없음을 철저히 고백하고 엎드릴 때, 비로소 우리는 십자가의 긍휼과전적인 은혜만을 절박하게 붙들 수 있다. 내 안의 모든 '가짜 의'를 벗어던지는 거룩한 영적 몸부림은 어떤 것이 있을까?How?  1) 내 생각에 ‘의로운’ 행동을 하는 것이 아닌, 하나님이 보기에 ‘의로운’ 행동하기.  1)-1 하나님은 남들과의 비교를 통해 우월감을 느끼는 행위를 ‘의롭다’라고 말하지 않음. 2) 정죄의 손가락질이 아닌 ‘중보’의 기도손을 만들기.3) 오늘 하루 삼위일체 하나님의 이름, 야웨, 예수, 성령 부르기.  3)-1 망령되이 일컫지 않기 위해 그에 합당한 삶 살아야 함(출 20:8).[1]  [참고문헌] ㅁ“מוּג”. G. J. Botterweck, H. Ringgren. in Theological Dictionary of The Old Testament. Vol.8. David E. Green (Grand Rapids, MI: Wm. B. Eerdmans, 1997): 149–52.ㅁ“קָרָא”. G. J. Botterweck, H. Ringgren, Heinz-Josef Fabry. in Theological Dictionary of The Old Testament. Vol.13. David E. Green, Douglas W. Stott (Grand Rapids, MI: Wm. B. Eerdmans, 2004): 109–35.골딩게이, 존. 『이사야』 Understanding the Bible Commentary (서울: 성서유니온, 2012).김회권. 『하나님 나라 신학으로 읽는 이사야 40-66장』 (서울: 복 있는 사람, 2020).베스터만, 클라우스. 『이사야 (Ⅲ)』 번역실 역. 국제성서주석 (서울: 한국신학연구소, 1999).슈미트, 콘라드. "이사야." In 취리히성경해설 성경전서 개역개정판. 서울: 대한성서공회, 2021.스미스, 게리. 『이사야 2』 권대영 역. The New American Commentary (서울: 부흥과개혁사, 2020).안소근. 『이사야서 40-66장』 거룩한 독서를 위한 구약성경 주해 29-2 (서울: 바오로딸, 2017).차준희. 『교회 다니면서 십계명도 몰라?』 (서울: 국제제자훈련원, 2012).Alexander, J.A. The Later Prophecies of Isaiah. New York & London: Wiley and Putnam, 1847.Berges, Ulrich. Jesaja 55-66. Herders Theologischer Kommentar Zum Alten Testament Freiburg, Basel, Wien: Herder, 2022.Childs, Brevard S. Isaiah. The Old Testament Library Louisville: Westminster John Knox Press, 2001.Delitzsch, Franz. Biblical Commentary on the Prophecies of Isaiah. Translated by James Martin. Biblical Commentary on the Old Testament 7; Vol. 2, Edinburgh: T&T Clark, 1973.Koole, Jan L. IsaiahⅢ/3. Translated by Antony P. Runia. Historical Commentary on the Old Testament Leuven: Peeters, 2001.[1] cf. 차준희, 『교회 다니면서 십계명도 몰라?』 (서울: 국제제자훈련원, 2012), 59-72.