it's okay to miss your eating disorder | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 30

Episode DescriptionNobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong.In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up.In This Episode:Why missing your eating disorder doesn't mean you want to go backWhat the eating disorder actually gave you — and why that's worth acknowledgingThe grief nobody warns you about in recoveryWhy recovery can feel worse than the disorder at certain stagesRomanticizing the sick body — why it happens and how to protect yourselfThe two-list journal exercise for holding a balanced perspectiveWhy grieving the eating disorder is actually a sign of recovery workingWhat you're actually missing — and how to find it elsewhereTimestamps:0:00 Intro 2:00 Today's topic — missing your eating disorder 3:00 Why this feeling is so confusing and so common 5:00 What the eating disorder actually gave you 10:00 When recovery feels worse than the disorder 13:00 If you're in that space — keep going 15:00 How this is showing up for me in this pregnancy 18:00 Romanticizing the sick body 22:00 What you're actually missing 25:00 Practical steps 27:00 The two-list journal exercise 28:00 Letting yourself grieve it 31:00 Recovering towards something 33:00 Closing thoughtsThe Two-List Exercise:List 1: everything you miss about the eating disorder.List 2: everything it took from you.Try to make the second list longer. If you can't — bring it to therapy.Resources + Connect with Me:Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: missing your eating disorder, ED recovery grief, eating disorder recovery emotions, romanticizing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, grief in recoveryResources + Connect with Me:Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!