I've Said Too Much- that's me in the corner

Fractured human- rapid descent of becoming undone Side note I did take myself to urgent care for intervention. "Always felt that there'd be trouble Mass distraction hides the truth Prozac days and sleepless hours Seeds of change that don't bear fruit" Age of Reason, Black Sabbath I'm flailing in fear. Gripping onto grass to help keep my ass grounded. I'm scared being awake not knowing how to live in a world I no longer want to be part of, the template. I don't know how to live and survive not being on that path.  Fighting against medication that will leave me sexually dead inside but also comatose leaving me vulnerable of giving up and return to the template. I'm scared. I don't have a tribe. I'm having difficulty finding my voice from my future telling me to hold on, that this is one moment of many moments and from where she stands those great moments, after this, are really good; to just be here now in this one moment even with it's darkness. To be with this fear and to paraphrase Eckart Tolle, to act like I chose this moment.  I would enjoy messages of encouragement, yet I am not feeling safe with my sexual side, so please refrain from sending sexually explicit material at this time. I would love a handwritten letter or even a postcard! I may write back or make a mention~ PO BOX 1407 Lake Stevens, WA 98258 email: [email protected] Thank you for being here.