Keep It In-House- A Former YWAM Counselor Breaks the Silence

John, Jenny, and Shelby discuss Shelby's 18 years inside Youth With a Mission, where she served in counseling and member care while witnessing widespread spiritual, emotional, and sexual abuse. Shelby explains how YWAM's decentralized structure and theology create an environment where abuse is routinely handled "in-house," victims are silenced, and accountability only appears when public pressure becomes unavoidable. The conversation explores the influence of charismatic and New Apostolic Reformation theology, authoritarian leadership, erosion of self-trust, and the high personal cost of speaking out. Shelby shares why many remain silent, how spiritual language is used to excuse harm, and what she wishes she had known before joining. This discussion centers survivor voices, institutional responsibility, and the long road to healing after spiritual abuse.