Kill The Silence: Episode 4

In this episode, I go all in on something I’ve carried for years — shame.I think I’ve always struggled with shame due to my upbringing. It seems like it was hard wired into me. The kind of shame that doesn’t belong to me. The kind that was planted in me by people who should’ve protected me.And the kind that grew because I stayed silent for too long.I talk about what it’s been like to live with the shame of being manipulated, targeted, abused, and extorted by my therapist of five years.This one’s heavier. But it’s the truth. And I’m done being quiet about it.What’s Inside This Episode:* Why shame lingers after abuse — even when it wasn’t your fault* The fallout of being targeted and fired while in recovery* How my therapist exploited my darkest fears and made me question my sanity* What it’s like to be gaslit by the person you trusted most* The pressure to keep it all secret, and what happens when you stop* Why I refuse to carry the shame that belongs to my abuser* The real cost of silence — and why predators rely on itThis is one of the most personal episodes I’ve ever recorded.Not to make you uncomfortable — but because I know I’m not the only one who’s felt like this.Show Notes:* Abuse doesn’t always look like violence. Sometimes it looks like support.* I talk openly about my experience being manipulated by a licensed therapist while I was vulnerable, recovering, and isolated.* I share how shame became the tool she used to keep me quiet — and how I’m finally taking that back.* I reflect on why survivors blame themselves, and why that shame never belonged to us in the first place.* This episode includes real details of what happened — including identity distortion, manipulation, and threats.* I talk about how difficult it’s been to find a new therapist, trust again, and function under PTSD symptoms like emotional flooding, night terrors, and dissociation.* And why none of that is going to shut me up.—Cody TaymoreKill The Silence This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit killthesilenceofficial.substack.com/subscribe