Live Autistic Truth: "Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise"

👉 Subscribe… free or paid… to Substack, get a free PDF of the entire "every clock is a handgun pointed at my head" collection.👉 Support my work → Available as Amazon ebook or softcover. Exclusive hardcover edition coming soon.Content Note: Strong language, neurodivergent struggles, communication barriersVideo SummaryA raw piece that captures what it feels like to be autistic and ADHD at 71—trying to communicate through the static and distortion of a damaged system.Plain, direct language. No hidden meanings to decode. Just the real experience of feeling like "a brilliant creative soul trapped in a damaged body and neurology."Using the metaphor of a short-circuiting transistor radio, this piece asks the question every neurodivergent person knows: "Do you understand at all what I mean?"Content Note: Strong language, neurodivergent struggles, communication barriersKey Themes Explored:* Communication barriers that autistic and ADHD people face daily* The transistor radio metaphor for neurodivergent expression through "static and distortion"* Feeling trapped between brilliant inner life and damaged external systems* Seeking understanding from other neurodivergent people* AuDHD experience (autism + ADHD) at 71 years old* The struggle to "just be heard" through intermittent short-circuitsWho This Speaks To:* Adults with autism, ADHD, or both (AuDHD)* Anyone who feels misunderstood or struggles to communicate their inner experience* People seeking authentic neurodivergent voices without academic filtering* Those who relate to feeling like their "wiring" interferes with expression* Readers interested in metaphor-based understanding of neurodivergent experienceDiscussion Starters:* Do you relate to the transistor radio metaphor for neurodivergent communication?* How does it feel when your internal experience doesn't match what others see?* What metaphors help you explain your neurodivergent experience to others?* Have you found your "tribe" of people who understand without explanation?Full TranscriptWell, I feel closer to the spoken word tradition than poetry. I I just ain't that fancy. This first one, I thought I'd start with uh a metaphor, something that autistics see right away, and I think it will help uh this autist.So, this is Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise# asking AUDHDists.Bear with me a minute. I'm autistic plus ADHD.I feel like a a brilliant creative soul as if trapped in a damaged body and neurology.um trying to communicate with the world through an intermittently short-circuiting transistor radio playing through static and the distortion and sparking circuits to just be heard.Do you understand at all what I mean?# actually autistic# ADHD# really AUDHD.This free podcast is supported by listeners like you. Please like and share. It's the biggest thing you can do to help all neurodivergent voices beat the algorithm.Connect:* Share your own "transistor radio" moments below* Tag an AuDHDist who gets it* Hit the bell for new releases in this 5-week spoken word series#AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. Click… free to receive new posts and "every clock" PDF. To support my work, consider choosing a paid subscription. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe