My Autism? Failing Upward to Burn Out? Or Succeeding Downward to...

My autism? Failing upward toward collapse, succeeding downward toward joy? What if you weren't born to produce anything? 👉 New Chapbook: "every clock is a handgun pointed at my head" → https://www.amazon.com/every-clock-handgun-pointed-head-ebook/dp/B0FNLHC6SY 👉 Start Here: Live Autistic Truth playlist → https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgBbPyJUGJw&list=PL_812RrZO_QWB-WHVZRBe-hjr37UNPxdb 👉 Full text & weekly authentic autistic content → ://johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com What if your life's value isn't measured by output, productivity, or what you create for others? This piece explores the quantum reality of autistic life—simultaneously failing and succeeding, finding purpose in purposelessness, and why a shooting star slashing through darkness doesn't need to justify its existence. For late-diagnosed autistic adults tired of productivity culture, their families learning to understand, and anyone questioning whether their worth depends on what they produce. Recorded live from my subStack studio—raw, unfiltered philosophical spoken word about autism, authenticity, and finding joy in simply experiencing this moment. Subscribe for weekly autistic perspectives that challenge productivity culture and celebrate authentic existence. Share with someone drowning in "should be doing more." Next: More poetry from the chapbook collection exploring autistic time, family trauma, and moments of unexpected joy. Autistic elder. Poet. Born to observe, experience, and overshare. #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticPhilosophy #ProductivityCulture #AutisticAdult #LateAutistic #Neurodivergent #SpokenWord #AuthenticVoices #AutismAcceptance #AntiProductivity #AutisticJoy #MentalHealthPoetry #AutisticLife #Burnout #LifePurpose #AutisticExpression This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe