My First Trauma - R*pe, Abuse & Grooming Inside The Family

This is not an easy episode. And it’s not meant to be.In this first entry of Am I the Trauma?, I’m speaking about my earliest experiences with abuse… what it looked like, how it hid inside something that was supposed to be safe, and how grooming doesn’t announce itself — it slowly rewrites your reality until you don’t even have language for what’s happening.We talk about family. Silence. Confusion. The moments your body knew before your mind did.And what it means to grow up carrying something you were never meant to hold.This isn’t just a story… it’s a starting point. Because trauma doesn’t end where it happened — it shows up in your relationships, your desire, your boundaries, your sense of self.If you’ve ever questioned your own memory, your reactions, or why your body responds the way it does… this episode is for you.Take your time with this one.—Find more of my work, courses, and upcoming workshops:🌐 www.ginkgominds.comFollow me for daily truths, nervous system education, and the kind of conversations most people avoid:Instagram: @jo.oswinTikTok: @jo.oswinJoin the Aftercare Club (deeper conversations, live sessions, and community):💌 Patreon: patreon.com/jooswin