my unfiltered eating disorder story | recovered-ish podcast ep. 2

in this episode, i share my eating disorder + recovery story — but not in the “before/after, numbers, shock value” way. i’m not here to give you content you can compare yourself to. i’m here to give you context, meaning, and the parts that actually matter.i talk about the early moments where body awareness and objectification started showing up way before food did, how perfectionism and high achievement shaped my brain, and how passion (for me: musical theatre) quietly morphed into an eating disorder before i even realized what was happening.this episode is about the function of the eating disorder — not just what it looked like.important note before you listeni do not share weights, numbers, behavior details, or “sick photos.” my goal is for you to leave feeling less alone, not more activated.in this episode, we cover:the earliest body memory i can still remember (and why it mattered)how objectification and “being perceived” can wire body shame earlyperfectionism: not the drive to achieve — the fear of failingpassion + obsession: how a “good trait” can become a risk factorthe perfect storm: temperament + stress + environment (college, change, isolation)how my eating disorder became intertwined with identity and performancethe moment i realized i had achieved my dream… and felt trapped by ithow the eating disorder functioned like an escape hatch (and why that’s so hard to let go of)what actually helped: support, treatment, and building a life i didn’t need to be saved fromthe question i want you to sit with: what is your eating disorder doing for you?sponsor / resources mentionedif you want real tools (not just insight), Recovery Skills Training is my step-by-step program that teaches the skills of recovery: food guilt, fear, identity, internal leadership, exercise, real-life situations, and more.get $57 off with code PODCAST: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/follow along on instagram: @recoverwithchloe (instagram.com/recoverwithchloe)timestamps 00:00 intro + how i’m sharing this safely02:34 why “ed storytime” can be harmful06:06 early body awareness12:27 perfectionism + high achievement15:12 passion → disorder18:47 the perfect storm in college25:04 broadway + identity crisis30:15 the eating disorder as an emergency exit32:54 treatment + recovery37:34 the questions39:12 closing thoughtsif anything in this episode brings up insight, familiarity, or emotion — i’d love to hear from you. comment wherever you’re listening, or DM me your thoughts. your story matters too.Resources + Connect with Me:Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!