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EPISODE · Dec 2, 2025 · 27 MIN

Nine Years From Collapse To Self-Return

from The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast · host Julie Nguyen

Send us Fan MailWhat if the moment everything falls apart is actually the moment love pries you open? Julie takes us through a nine-year arc that began with a single word—“enough”—and a choice she never thought she’d make: walking away from the dance studio she built with her sister. That exit ignited shock, isolation, anxiety, and a grief so deep it lived on the bathroom floor. Yet within the collapse was a quieter truth: the soul wasn’t broken, only the hardened shell cracked so something truer could breathe.We move step by step through the emotional weather that followed—rage at family and fate, the ache of abandonment, and the stubborn loop of “why can’t I let this go.” Surface practices helped, but shadow work did what quick fixes couldn’t. A mirror turned inward revealed patterns, choices, and survival strategies that needed compassion and accountability. The turning point came with self-forgiveness: “I forgive myself for what I didn’t know.” That practice softened the chest, rewired the story, and shifted the language from “that happened to me” to “now it is up to me.”Along the way, we explore the power of being witnessed—through therapy, inner child work, internal family systems, and plant medicines—to open the locked rooms of the heart. The void that felt like exile became a womb for rebirth. Leaving dance wasn’t failure; it was the end of a chapter and the start of a truer path. The takeaway is simple and demanding: you are not broken; you are breaking open. Anger, sadness, and grief are teachers. On the other side of each is the same horizon—love, freedom, and the choice to craft new patterns. If this journey resonates, follow the show, share this story with someone who needs it, and leave a review with your biggest takeaway so we can keep growing this community together. Where are you being asked to soften today?Support the show✨ Thank you for tuning into this episode of Spiritual Shitshow! Remember, the journey to your most authentic self isn’t always neat, but it’s always worth it. 💖🎧 If today’s episode resonated with you, share it with someone who needs to hear it, and don’t forget to leave a review to help more people find this space.🌟 Let’s keep the conversation going—connect with me on Instagram @julienguyen.online or drop me a message about what’s lighting you up or challenging you right now.For 1:1 sessions or support, go to www.julienguyen.online.comUntil next time, stay messy, stay magical, and keep showing up for yourself. 🌀 #SpiritualShitshow #AuthenticLiving #SoulGrowth #HealingJourney #KeepGrowing #PersonalDevelopment #SoulPodcast #RealTalkSpirituality #SpiritualCommunity #ListenNow #ConsciousLiving #SpiritualGrowth 

Send us Fan Mail What if the moment everything falls apart is actually the moment love pries you open? Julie takes us through a nine-year arc that began with a single word—“enough”—and a choice she never thought she’d make: walking away from the dance studio she built with her sister. That exit ignited shock, isolation, anxiety, and a grief so deep it lived on the bathroom floor. Yet within the collapse was a quieter truth: the soul wasn’t broken, only the hardened shell cracked so something ...

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