Our good standard of living is more like a good standard of dying a slow death

I can probably last another twenty minutes out here in the cold I guess we'll go on to random bits I was thinking after rebounding I was thinking how do we celebrate our body cavity in the field of gravity and when we sit we compress our organs and and move them out of the proper orientation so it sort of changes our energy that way to and how rebounding exercises every cell in one's body and I think it actually helps us contain ecstasy there's a lightness to it and there's a celebration to it I was thinking to the experience of map consciousness or trans consciousness going into one of those other states it's sort of like trying to use ones opposite hand than one strong hand it's almost like I'm right handed so going around all day using my left hand I'd really have to pay attention and it would get frustrating and it's a little bit more difficult because it's something that I'm not used to but by going into those states and then coming back one can actually get better at it just like people can get better at using their left hand if they consciously use it so just because the first time is a complete disaster and ends in a total nosedive doesn't mean that doesn't mean that that's how it's going to be I was also thinking about how our standard of living actually keeps us in a prison we have this sort of cozy standard of living so we make our little cozy prisons for ourselves and then we're in isolation and then we feel lonely and then we think well I'm in this prison with all this stuff why don't I feel happy but we're not actually we don't live together the way we're designed to live together so our good standard of living is more like a good standard of dying a slow death I was thinking too that maybe when I get more into my embodied manic self I'll be called to invite people to be more childlike because if people are more childlike in general that's going to make everyone happier and there would be less instances of crisis there's one thing I want to work on which is bringing emotional CPR here to help people who are in distress that's very important it's important to have that safety it's important to not be pathologized unless completely necessary when one is distressed and then the other thing is just being more childlike in general will decrease the overall resonance of distress because people are not taking themselves so seriously etc so I think that is a different level to work on it I think is important to have a safety and then it's important to go for thriving and this would be a way for me to be unconditionally loving towards the ones that would choose to pathologize me anyone in society might choose to pathologize me if they see me in distress they think wow I better call the police or something for example versus being equipped themselves to help me and I'm not saying I'm not blaming anyone for that at this point that's where the distress help comes in but then also being able to meet with so-called normal people in order to be playful and be childlike that brings us together that unites us that is a space that is a relationship beyond oh this is the normal person and this is the person that has a mental illness those common dimensions of humanity we all have and it's because we're not existing in those common dimensions that we have this in action of thought pile up and stress us out and then now we need normal people that not be childlike because they have to be professionals so we both want to be in that domain it's like the people who get diagnosed with something can't pretend anymore and the ones that are professionals can pretend that they don't want to be that way and since we don't know how to just be ourselves and be childlike we end up being distressed and then we end up being pathologized and when I was on my trampoline today I was listening to my pumping playlist and I was thinking this is how this music moves me and then I was thinking about how most of us have an ego voice saying things and tha