Random Thoughts

I decided to leave just unedited because it's a perfect sample of how my brain works. And why this podcast isn't anymore just going to be me talking for a while. I was 100% sober while recording this and this is very very much how any normal conversation with me turns. Added with my worn down by life and don't give enough appearance that I'm still rockin, I don't get taken very seriously often anymore. One of the doctors was afraid because I said something to the effect of you don't know who you're dealing with. What I look like is not who I am. He took this as a physical threat. Or as an opportunity to add physical threats to my narrative. I'm honestly not sure which. What it meant was I look like a new one. I look like someone that you can just disregard. Just like my husband. But that's not who we are. I was already researching the DNR issue and knew that I was in the right legally. He would see we weren't just some.... Whatever specific image they had or were creating.... That's what I meant. Thank you to the same nurse I mentioned in here for documenting that by the way. Another documented note in the Case files that shows I was present and fighting for him. It's literally as I'm writing this and was recording this earlier that I'm seeing that one person really really tried so hard to stop what was happening or at the very least to give me a record of it after. Please if that person is reading or listening to any of this if you ever are treated in any way unfairly after this starts to become a thing... Please contact me I will do whatever it is that I can do and that might be more than you think to make sure that you are not retaliated against that's what I'm pretty sure was you being the bravest person in that hospital. You could just be super efficient and none of the rest of them are. That's also a possibility either way congratulations!