Recovering When Everyone Is Shrinking

Recovering from an eating disorder while everyone around you is dieting, losing weight, counting calories, taking weight-loss medications, and celebrating getting smaller is fucking hard.It’s hard watching other people shrink while your body is changing in the opposite direction. It’s hard not to compare. It’s hard when a part of you feels jealous, even though you know you don’t actually want your eating disorder back. And it’s hard constantly questioning whether you’re really doing the right thing.This episode is about the jealousy, comparison, grief, fear, anger, and loneliness that can come with recovering in a world that constantly tells us that smaller is better.Because sometimes the hardest part of recovery isn’t choosing recovery.It’s choosing recovery while everyone else is choosing to shrink.