Resting Dead Face

No more silent treatment You are just screaming in my ears What the fuck am I doing here? I am just dancing at the edge of the world My father was a freight train, derailed Hard not to see the appeal Remembering then , before he was dead Everything was too loud Just say the word, and I’ll burn it all to the ground I have eyes of every color now I’m a child, with an old tired heart I am a beam of old light from a depleted star And I will only find you in the dark Fear is a fetish I can’t hang up the tether Been in the future where it’s hard to remember I awoke alone and I said out loud What is one more worm in the hole When I am put in the ground I am not ashamed of my shame Now that I gave it a name I sink and I cannot choose Brain cut my body looks I let it all pass through Because I need to But my heart don’t want My heart don’t want the truth