Sadie's Story-My Body Isn't Mine

Randin shares an anonymous survivor story to Krystle about trauma, marriage, coercive control, sexual assault, shame, and the complicated aftermath of trying to heal while still blaming herself.This episode looks at the ways early trauma can shape a survivor’s nervous system, how coercion can hide inside relationships, why consent is not real when fear and punishment are involved, and how survivors often carry shame that never belonged to them.Sadie’s story is heavy, honest, and deeply human. It is not just about what happened to her. It is about what she survived, what she learned, and how she began rebuilding a life where safety, love, and truth could finally exist.Content warning: This episode discusses sexual assault, coercive control, domestic abuse, childhood trauma, grief, dissociation, CPTSD, postpartum depression, hypersexuality, and suicidal thoughts. Please listen with care.Chapters00:00 Sadie’s anonymous story begins03:20 High school and early relationship dynamics08:30 Early trauma and survival patterns12:00 How trauma shaped her relationship with her body16:20 Marriage, pain, and pressure22:00 Coercion and survival sex29:00 Emotional punishment and control34:30 Carrying the marriage alone39:00 Power shifts and escalating behavior43:00 Dissociation and emotional survival49:30 Why this story was hard to tell