SEASON 10 : wake up & do it all over again. Whaaaaat??? (thx Oprah & MM) | Advocate/speak for those who were unable to in (a) public school (b) healthcare system (c) bystander abuse on a board of directors/groups (d) employment discrimination if unwilling

Send us Fan Mail I also created a YouTube video, of course & can be found here ---> __________. Since this is the first time I've relistened to a recording in its entirety, to get here, I'll explain on sites I've connected mostly youTube. Instagram is not reliable in its technology & "censorship" because I need ALL THE WORDS to SPEAK about my [user] experience. The internet, if not knowledgable in it, one can really be told literally anything & their ptsd words on replay (projection) are, "you have no idea what I do! You don't CARE about what I do!" & all I thought was, that's her, not ME! When someone really lets IT* out, especially if you've lost your voice (you hear everything) with a chronic pain condition & ptsd that further heightens sensory in order to survive since YOU MUST REMEMBER EVERYTHING TO KNOW WHAT TO DO & WHAT NOT TO DO (it's coercion! it's gaslighting! it's the 'ol change the narrative & if you're questioned, GET REAL ANGRY!!! I don't keep secrets since I've been concussed twice & again, was shown how they do it--& why I really don't want it to ever happen to anyone again (survivor mentality & maybe guilt), but also, veterans with PTSD taught me a lot & I'd like to say thank you by ensuring their voices are heard, too. I don't know how I'm going to do this, since my body is not as sensitive, my muscles are coming back to life, my vertigo is mostly situational & flare-ups are quarterly, not daily, weekly, monthly so duration/frequency (not intensity nor severity) have decreased significantly & why when you start to feel better, you may forget who helped you & since this was very apparent when others CHANGE THEIR NARRATIVES I wanted to make sure I never did that. I left a lot of seeds so I NEVER FORGET VETERANS. I never thought I would, but when you're in fear 24/7 for years, that adrenaline becomes so familiar, that conditioning IS the re-retrigger* indicating a loop that does not end bouncing between multiple memories, places, faces & associations that can seem endless. It will not stop until confronted. If you can't confront, best to zzz... zzz & ptsd. zzz & chronic pain. zzz & tbi. The importance of sleep cannot be understated. A new word "popped up" to help describe trauma in order to end it. To re-retrigger means to relive something but with "conscious consent." You are awake (had to check, "am I asleep or dreaming?" It was hard to tell, both in dreams & when awake) & you are aware (that you are giving consent with enthusiasm so a "heck yes!"). The point is to see if by doing something, it diminishes the symptoms. If so, continue. If it makes it worse, abandon. If no change or neutral, reconsider trying again. The point is you are constantly reflecting, using The Dialectic & saying aloud, "this is your/their ptsd, trauma, suicide, neuroticism, rudeness, etc" since it's different for everyone. Let's say individualized & why the words of ACP is the origin. You can't use them! STOP. SmarterThanTrauma™ ©SMART E MC Support the show