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Send us Fan MailThis is P3/1.Just going to count 1-100 and then it's over. That was thinking from the past. I know I can end it as long as I keep editing these ideas until it's 100% understood by anyone who wants to know how to ensure smarter than trauma/suicide. Meaning, you're going TO LIVE. Support the show

Send us Fan MailHere are the characteristics of people to avoid : Those who DUMP ENDLESSLY (and then deny it). Now ask why they do this? What are they getting? Support the show

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Send us Fan MailPersonal files were stolen. I know because I purposely put them in a place to be NEAR the SOURCE of TRAUMA to prove to self & expose "body" (lizard brain, in survival mode) to it by sitting there & get an answer from someone who is AVOIDING QUESTIONS. Gee, who does that sound like. I will be counting the amount of VMs sent to someone since that was the 2nd generation container. The first being online when it was just a massive amount of noise without a name & then their names started to come into focus. With tech, you can confront them all. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail100 Lillies given to one family to allow me to "sit with them" longer & wait for just ONE EXAMPLE of KINDNESS to concussion.When you do not have numbers down well, it's really easy for others to take advantage. That's obvious, but when they make it so clear that they will do it again & again & again, Support the show

Send us Fan MailDon't ask them any Qs. She said it. She explained the mentality, the philosophy and it's on replay so THEY ALL THINK THE SAME WAY!!! What?! When you figure it out, do you keep the knowledge for yourself to make the best life or do you use that knowledge to help others. I became a teacher to give them my knowledge of how to get through this life with a population that statistically kills self the most & I didn't realize it, but I had childhood suicide. I will now be sharing what helped end that. These are dark topics, but they don't have to be. This is life. It's death. It's how you die--naturally or by your own hand since it's "too hard." What my students told me. Support the show

Send us Fan MailA lot. So much that I transferred it to food. Green. White. Red. The first menu will be Italian. Then Eggs Benedict for "darkest day" which became "d"esignated "d"river.I do not decide which stories to include. The PTSD will decide & that's because non-consent is the removal of choice. I need ALL THE FACTS/data (principal) to make a good decision.Support the show

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Send us Fan MailI promised self to just record it ONE TIME. That's all you have to do. ONE TIME to prove it to self, "you can do it." This memory will stick since it's full on sensory overload/loverlord since PTSD has a purpose. To never forget. MAKE THE MEMORIES YOU NEED TO SURVIVE. I am beyond hesitant but you'll never know it. I know now that I freeze & all those moment when I couldn't move & instead talk talk talk talk talk talk to stay there as I'm terrified & not even aware of how I feel is what "they see," (they saw) & now, "I see it, too." When you can see it 3-D. Concretely. What you get is a way to know self---flaws & all---and then to correct.I am looking for ____ in the office. I have no idea, but along the way, I'll find everything else I need to tell this story linearly. When _____ stole material that I cannot recreate, and some I can get copies of certainly, ____ took the burden off me since the tactile of all that is no longer an issue & literally, the body relaxed. Same happened when I said aloud, "I was stabbed," to someone who didn't know, but knew of radiating pain in back of left thigh and it went away. You have to just tell.Support the show

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Send us Fan MailENDING ADVOCACY by thanking those who helped me get out of the house [of violence]. Daily medical advocacy with a gentleman who just wants to get in a truck & on with his life. What we're fighting is TIME to get it done.JUST A SIDE NOTE : here's an example of using that adrenaline for advocacy. Flipping their ptsd created by what they did into something beneficial to others & was given universal consent by #14 as I practiced recording to remove non-consent recording, but I check in at the end, realizing, I don't think they would want THIS RECORDED (the goal being...yes, it's a thing in your life, but how do flip that trauma to look forward to the future!)Support the show

Send us Fan Mail"Final Fantasy" song was his choice, but he told me. I ordered this on your apple account & it pops up on occasion. 100% awareness. That's how you figure out people faster.Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhatever I'd said, I own. It's the methodology & it works.& a 2nd go. There's this concept of "ultimate trust" (everything is a thing) : Calling me "hot" (those conversations can be verbatim). Weird. "He's your problem now," & a pinch. While these memories do not lead to spiraling, is it worth trying to remove entirely by transferring it to another place to see if it can be CONTAINED. Just like the behavior that I've been doing for a long time. GETTING IT OUT.My whole life I've been told to trusting. Very gullible & it's true, when I'm with family or friends of family, it's instant trust. WOW!!! You get it all & why the people that betrayed that (finally, we're in betrayal) cannot come back in my life since it happened--I'm different. I don't believe you. I don't "like you" (something I didn't even know you could tell people since we're in this society of politeness and why world travel is great).It's just a word--"best"--to get to darkest day who used that to plant the seed (blossoming instantly) to turn a NO into a YES. Same thing with this family when I said, "NO" & then they just change their narrative---and then they believe it. They truly believe it so the story I'll be telling is what happened & the evidence is that I don't live with their shhhhhIT (secrets) of a dynamic I've now seen twice. A replay. A redo. The knowledge given to me makes all of this worth it.  If the violence didn't happen, I would have never put it together. Support the show

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Send us Fan MailI talk about a thrift store that is for everyone, but also has homeless & individuals in hard situations (e.g. a family that had a house fire) resources. Support the show

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Send us Fan MailUnlocked GOOGLE : Linguistically and historically, the assertion is partially correct. The word "rape" derives from the Latin verb rapere, which means "to seize," "to snatch," or "to steal". For much of early human history and legal tradition, rape was classified and prosecuted not as an offense against a woman’s bodily autonomy, but as a property crime against her father or husband. [1, 2, 3]EtymologyLatin origins: The Latin word raptus described the act of abducting a woman, with or without sexual contact.Evolution of the word: In the early 14th century, English usage referred primarily to the "seizure" or "plundering" of goods or property. By the 15th century, the meaning narrowed specifically to the abduction and sexual violation of a woman. [1, 2, 3]Legal HistoryTheft of "Property": Early civilizations, including Hebraic and Roman laws, treated the rape of a woman as an economic offense. It was viewed as a violation of a paterfamilias (head of household) to control the marriageability and value of his property (e.g., daughters or wives). [1, 2]Bride Theft: The concept of raptio historically encompassed forced marriage or the large-scale abduction of women. For ambitious men in the Middle Ages, abducting and raping wealthy women—known as "heiress stealing"—was a common tactic to force them into marriage and seize their land. [1, 2]Modern UnderstandingToday, the definition of rape is understood universally through the lens of human rights, consent, and bodily integrity, rather than property or theft. This shift away from property-based laws to viewing rape as a severe crime against an individual occurred in Western legal systems starting in the late 19th and 20th centuries.BEFORE WORDS, ART BUBBLED UP. I remember since I made a video with it in flashes of imagery since it was too intense then. Let's see if I wander through youTube, if it pops up. Seems when I think of something. Say something. Next, I'll just find it [easily]. That's the call-and-response with origin being slave narratives.ART = "Rape of Lucretia" (google it)Support the show

Send us Fan MailThe reflection is part of this curriculum due to religion, but also when looking down (not able to look up) and walking throughout Chicago, I'd see a lot of broken glass & the word REFLECTION was a common thing in Education classes after writing or performing a lesson.Do I still have to write about that Super Bowl experience? The one where I made boundaries with a group of [gross, rude & lame] guys that I do not vouch for? YES!Support the show

Send us Fan MailThat anything is to relive it in vivid replay memory & it did not happen. It wasn't the easiest thing to look at & I did not read word for word & the parts that were hardest I put in a moment of scrolling, zooming in on these words, "blunt (closed) injury: The head sustains a violent blow or is whipped back and forth, causing the brain to bounce or twist inside the skull. Common causes include brain to..." <---losing it so we ptSTOPd. Stopped, past tense. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail...just write it.That Super Bowl party where I made a strong boundary.And what I did to remove it---go to The Lodge--happiest place in Gold Coast imho.Support the show

Send us Fan MailAt some point, The 2nd step will happen with the 1st step. What is the first step?What is the second step?(clue in Episode Title)The success of this curriculum is dependent on the "classroom," & if everyone fails a test, there's a problem with the test. But in this case, perhaps there is an issue with desIRE so let's get FIRED UP to end trauma for everyone, not just those some who have abuse of power, use optics, have tactics like lying & avoiding & continual contradictions that cannot be explained. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhen you can put [audio] files in folders (voice memos) & count to answer HOW MANY? to track frequency, duration & intensity, it makes it easier. I will be able to SAVE THESE FILES & then delete all of it, but every "first time" I record. The first time becomes the last time. 24 hours over two days worth of adrenaline was created by ___ + ___ (tag twats!) and just give it back to them. Support the show

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Send us Fan MailActually, I'm going to use THIS DAY--June 5th--so just one day behind. Not years. Vast improvement since the difference is... the trauma truly is GONE. How do I know? I do not feel it--that adrenaline & no memories on replay & why I'm so glad that I took these notes! Ta-daSupport the show

Send us Fan MailThe WORST is when someone can't answer a question.Make the question a Y/N question. Then really listen to their answer. Still can't answer? They're trying to get ahead (deflect, distract, emote by sharing their mental health or trauma or call you mentally ill or use your trauma against you).I am reminded, but the DIFFERENCE is it's not in my body. Finally! It's because I made some decisions. Support the show

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Send us Fan MailThe NEXT GOAL once I could a) hear self, b) control ptsd, c) ID suicide/SI & "flick" it away (yay!) & realize that universe really does align. The very thing I've been doing---holding all this paperwork was/is a necessary thing, sure, but the evidence is in the LIFE ANEW created.  In special ed, as the teacher/writer, I wrote 4 goals (one per quarter) + a statement stating WHAT WILL THE STUDENT BE ABLE TO DO.Once I tackle, a), b), c) & d) then go into decision-making (that principal that was allegedly data driven, but great campaign & I voted for that!) to KEEP or ABANDON since the project is finally coming into focus. A short story about... JUST LISTEN AGAIN. SAVED THIS IDEA in modern day "stone." Supposed to last forever. The internet? The ultimate container.Support the show

Send us Fan Mailreal-life personal experienceall of this violence has a purpose make sure we don't do this to each other...temporary insane. (I do sound "elevated")Predator & Prey <---the cats & putting bird seed on the balcony so they would "stalk" the birds & could remove "stalking."Support the show

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Send us Fan MailThe few recommendation until MARVEL & DC COMICS & SUPERHEREOS since started going to movies with guy friends, typically do not go to these types of shows, but the impact was better (not real violence) & new in advance when there would be one. A memory on replay about movies connected to another person, opposite gender. Why, this is how I will remember the number two.Support the show

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Send us Fan MailWe're going to a much different time. The time of castles [and dragons]. What are dragons a symbol of & why?Support the show

Send us Fan MailADVOCACY is everything! Why not try & help someone.Support the show

Send us Fan MailThere were 3x before assaults. 2x post. Let's just flip flop between the two & see what happens. If you have MULTIPLE MEMORIES about the same behavior. ME SAYING NO. That word lost meaning with these groups of people. Do you have people like that in your life? Who break consent & do not respect the word NO.Support the show

Send us Fan MailThe people who understood that I was dealing with life & death & that I would remember ever PTSD moment. That's why we have PTSD? To never forget ____. That person who died. Survivor's guilt. Finally MM/mm.Support the show

Send us Fan Mail& to the person who uses the same tactic over & over again. You can't anymore since I'm 100% fine with self. Their words---"bubbly" & which celebrity is connected to that!?!? I was so nervous, and that's why RAPID SPEECH is the behavior that tells me "really uncomfortable!"Support the show

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Send us Fan MailMight as well get right to it. If you do not have numbers (or tech), it's really easy for people to... ___ ____ ____. (say it quietly now).Support the show

Send us Fan MailLet's use the word EXPOSURE so I can start putting together how prolonged exposure therapy is the "best thing." The information I need to know about anyone is... & how to get there faster... Support the show

Send us Fan MailThat inhale of breath is the first bit of this PART & the last bit of the last bit. Or previous bit. SEQUENCE or ORDER. I hear those who take advantage... They may change themselves so the accuser is "crazy," or change who they are so there's no pattern, but to announce it---that's the freaky part. Support the show

Send us Fan MailThat inhale of breath is last sound in this audio recording to say "enough is enough." I hear those who took advantage. This is what they think & do. The memories stay the same. Even if they "change," their "core" will remain the same. Support the show

Send us Fan MailAs I look for ONE THING IN PARTICULAR. A letter from my PCP who summed up all diagnoses & contained 10,000s of pieces of paper over how many years, I'm finding other things, too...Support the show

Send us Fan MailThe thing I will not say & now is HOW I KNOW 100% I am no longer expressive with trauma, but can hear self is... (thinking: just write it)I will begin writing & that THOUGHT will remain & represent the adrenaline (repeating thoughts), for 1) getting into the office 2) touching paper to dampen sensory in fingertips 3)  Support the show

Send us Fan MailFAMILY | the caretakers & then a behavior I just newly UNDERSTOOD with these “other” families. Right. The “other” which are those who don’t think like “us.”There was something else I heard, prompting me to take notes, but lost it, but looking at the circle moving along & the number 23:25 so knowing in 1/4ths. At around 6 minutes or before, I could hear it again. The shock is DISBELIEF & it stops me from talking—that’s what they want. The food drive!!“FAP” is FAPE. So pronounced with long A. Free & Appropriate Public Education. The royalty in America & the song “Goodbye to Hollywood” tells me to make that video for FB.1/2 goes here & 1/2 goes here which is EASY MATH & A nod to “equality” in relationships."The city of Chicago is the catalyst." This is also known as PROMPTING EVENT. Listening to others where veterans can teach you...The definition of a FRIEND to me, was, they know your coffee order... & they give you way m ore sugar & cream than you would ever put in yourself. "Let's start with coffee advocacy" stems from my friends (Chicago origin & then transferred to MICHIGAN)...ARTICHOKE to remove... that without saying it, like non-verbal expression using FASHION.I haven't heard that city in ages! The name of my sword--- _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ & the first song by Cheers Elephant. I used to write "Cheers," as my salvation...connected to this movie (just watched this week--a recommendation from a friend. The theme) Find it.Right. FT felt "so real" when I first used it. Like they're right in the room & now, it's not quite as sensory overload. It's a just a video chat--geez.BOOKSHARE.org & one family who literally used this for FREE BOOKS & talked about it repeatedly so that's nice. As stated, anything that helps special needs, helps everyone. Just don't "brag" about it. It wasn't quite like that, but seriously---it reTriggered the whole, "who pays?" That family got it.EDIT | water, but when I did drink, one beer, one cocktail...Got it, I'm missing words here & there & no wonder it's hard to understand, but I'm certain of what I am saying.!00% | The greatest apology in the world. I reject it, but thanks for the template.I hear, "write some letters." OK.Support the show

Send us Fan MailThe right side? Using words for good. To end suicide instantly by saying ONE MORE DAY. MAKE IT ONE MORE DAY (usually nighttime is the worst) but the point, give them HOPE every day. Isn't that EDUCATION!?I labeled this "first one is done for you" since FIRST TIME. It's my first time... my parents didn't teach me _____. Geez! How many more times & 3x in a row, so fast, like acceleration & why super sensory made it MAKE SENSE. #predatorSupport the show

Send us Fan MailHow do you treat people in these relationships & HAVE GRATITUDE. That’s right. Increase G to decrease "C word"/Complaints & why keep reliving it!!!! I GOT THIS!!!!By the way, the image is a symbol for Neptune. Black & Blue Bruise Hue or animal abuse/DV/battering & all the spaces of advocacy I was doing, the origin truly is, IT. I am not losing the origin of things. EVER.Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat about those icky places in contrast? Like a storage closet (the worst) instead of a classroom (the best). Make every day in every way a classroom. HMMMMRuh Roh. I'm thinking now!!!Support the show