Shame & Surviving a Cult: Part 2

In part 2 of the conversation, Sandra reflects on her experience growing up in a cult and the challenges she faced in developing her sense of self. She discusses the deep sense of community and shared experiences within the cult, as well as the loneliness and struggle to connect with others outside of it. Sandra also opens up about her battle with suicidal thoughts and her reliance on alcohol as a coping mechanism. The conversation highlights the subtle erosion of self and the power dynamics within cults, as well as the importance of healing and finding one's own path. Sandra reflects on her relationship with her mother and the challenges they faced due to their different experiences in the cult. She discusses the difficulty of fully expressing her feelings about the cult with her parents and the transformation their relationship has gone through over the years. Sandra also talks about the healing process she and her mother are going through and the challenges of building trust with herself. She shares her desire to write a business plan and pursue her dreams, despite the fear of failure.TakeawaysGrowing up in a cult provided a sense of community and shared experiences, but also led to a struggle to connect with others outside of the cult.Sandra battled with suicidal thoughts and turned to alcohol as a coping mechanism to numb her pain and loneliness.The power dynamics within the cult and the manipulation of free will by those in positions of power eroded the sense of safety and community.Leaving the cult was a difficult decision, but it allowed Sandra to start her healing journey and find her own path.The conversation highlights the importance of understanding the underlying pain and trauma that can lead to addiction and self-destructive behaviors. The challenges of navigating a relationship with a parent who still adheres to the rules and beliefs of a cultThe importance of open and honest communication in healing and repairing relationshipsThe process of building trust with oneself and overcoming self-doubt and fear of failureThe significance of pursuing one's dreams and not letting fear hold you backMore about Sandra:My name is Sandra Huitt and I'm a cult survivor, cycle breaker, and activist. I studied World Religion and History to check the accuracy of what I was taught as a child and I remain a passionate student in those fields as there's always more to learn. A decade of social work and pediatric counseling aligns with my belief that a rising tide lifts all boats. Vulnerability is one of my superpowers and I use it often to discuss my journey through healing to encourage others to find their path.  Traveling the world to absorb the beauty of other cultures lights me on fire and singing my heart out makes my soul happy.Ready to take the next step?Download the FREE handout, "⁠5 Things Shame Resilient People do Every Day⁠" and start making those daily shifts to break that shame cycle that's keeping you stuck in that negative headspace.Book a ⁠free 25-minute discovery call⁠ to discuss different program options and find the support best fits your needs.Stay Connected:Subscribe to the podcast on ⁠Spotify⁠ or ⁠Apple Podcasts⁠ and be sure to leave a review to let us know your thoughts on this episode.⁠YouTube⁠⁠Website⁠Chapters00:00 - Introduction and Setting Intentions06:10 - Exploring Sandra's First 17 Years in the Cult09:09 - Questioning and Witnessing the Negative Aspects13:06 - Victim-Blaming and Safety Erosion20:11 - Mental Health Struggles and Coping Mechanisms26:30 - Navigating Relationships with Parents in Cults32:59 - Healing Through Communication37:25 - Power Dynamics and Finding Your Voice42:35 - Building Self-Trust and Overcoming FearKeywordscult, leaving, healing, othering, fitting in, struggle, parents, anger, belonging, identity, trust, self-love, healing, demystify, self-worth