Sick Thoughts and Before A Session

Sick and play partner is gone. I have been in my space in head not in body. Binged on fet/porn. Good relationships cause friction for self reflection. Found a funny pre-play session almost cancelled I wasn't feeling pretty. I'd like to do nonsexual activities with my sex. Also I read Patton Oswalt's nonsense. Hilarious. My thoughts hopped up on nyquil. Just need to cry and cum- crum. Oy. This is by far a very raw and embarrassing recording.