Solo [Produced by Loseph Jones]

I miss Mama… I miss my mother, my little sister and father… Grandaddy and my Uncle Jack I try to honor The closer they get the more it hurts so why bother God help… I don't wanna do this by myself I done took so many losses there's barely anyone left I done cried so many tears hidden from everyone else Don't let it show, but even the word says Christ wept Family and friends dying, meanwhile I'm still trying To hold onto their word cause someone gotta live by it Some days are worse than others, I can't help but to feel tired Smiling in public, but emotionally real private Armed with a verse because the enemy still sliding Voices in my head but when I pray they get real quiet The lord is my shield so I try not to feel pious You can test me, but not my G, I'm still riding Abba all I got is you (is you) Everyone else leaves when I run out But no, not you (not you) Father won't you please just lift me up Lord I need healing (healing) Lately I been feeling solo (solo) Everything's been falling apart And watching it's been clouding my heart Doubts and second guesses are drowning my thoughts It's a blessing to struggle but that don't mean it ain't hard Job don't pay enough. Rent is all I got Add the bills, clothes and food; something gone come up short Don't take it wrong, I've gotten through the storm a lot But life is a cycle so you gone get washed Now watch… I've come a long way from scheming and hustling Speeding and cussing, smoking, drinking and busting I had no peace, I was bugging, all that was leading to nothing People coming and going and leaving me with the grudges I found my reason in Jesus He covered me in His covenant I survived that part of life to be relieved of my judgement So as it's falling to pieces I won't sleep on His justice I still believe that my season is coming That's Job Abba all I got is you (is you) Everyone else leaves when I run out But no, not you (not you) Father won't you please just lift me up Lord I need healing (healing) Lately I been feeling solo (solo) My babies mother just lost her life A couple years after she lost her rights, right? And all of the children, in spite of that lost, ain't cried And what's so sad is the fault ain't mine See, she refused to come to court, so she lost that fight Missing calls and visitations my wife often tried Spent many years together doing what I thought was right But couldn't afford the cost or price Like… Like… I always thought she would've came right back Tell the kids about her life and give them game like that Life is strange like that; sometimes you can't fight back I lost my mother too, I ain't wish them pain like that Generational curses and hereditary diseases You were 34 I wished you lived life with more meaning See, you were fighting demons; I pray that you found Jesus Rest easy because the kids are loved beyond reason Abba all I got is you (is you) Everyone else leaves when I run out But no, not you (not you) Father won't you please just lift me up Lord I need healing (healing) Lately I been feeling solo (solo) Abba all I got is you (is you) Everyone else leaves when I run out But no, not you (not you) Father won't you please just lift me up Lord I need healing (healing) Lately I been feeling solo (solo)