State of contentment, leap frog beautiful connections.

My depressive state is really rocking in the mud to get through it. Gathering resilience with moments of sitting in silence- eye of my storm. Anniversary of my brother's passing was difficult. Also a relative with a health crisis. Seeing connections as a beautiful game of leap frog. Some continue with me down parallel paths and others leap away. I'm in a state of flatline contentment. Satisfied. Recording this to revisit this feeling/sense when I need a reminder this, my blue flower center is at rest. Not a sexy episode, not crying, not cringing; this is a calm place and that's sexy!