Still no vaginal sex, 10 years.

No cock for vagina. Sadz. When do men decide they want to emotionally connect with or through sex? Confirmed I need an emotional connection to an emotionally available cock to enter my pussy. Still haven't had sex almost 10 years. I wish to find someone like my play partner but for day play, can host, and sometimes available for non sexual things.  Good girl conditioning have women hold onto their cookie that men think the way to an emotional connection is to not connect with a sexual woman? I'm here to not waste time, to get through as many as I can to find someone I connect with sexually to fuck my pussy, with feelings though. I don't want to absorb your life or a forever committed anything. I won't make my sexual side smaller to see if you'll be emotionally available; fucking rise to the occasion, literally.