The 44-Year Silence: Attachment, Betrayal, and the "Slow-Motion Train Wreck, Season 2, Episode 2

Content Note: This episode discusses sensitive topics related to marriage, emotional neglect, and betrayal. Listener discretion is advised. I was an elected official, a leader, and a "superstar" at work. At home, I was a ghost. This is the story of how I found bread in the wilderness of my own marriage. For nearly a year, I went quiet. Not because I ran out of things to say, but because I was living through a story I didn’t yet have words for. In this week’s episode of Where to Find Bread, I take you back to the beginning, to the attachment wounds of my adoption and the 'deals' I made with God at 23. I share the reality of 44 years spent in a marriage that felt like a slow-motion train wreck. For decades, I believed the lie that I was the problem. I was told I was 'too much' or 'not enough,' while I navigated the invisible wall of Intimacy Anorexia. I became a superstar in my career just to feel seen, while my life at home felt like a series of closed doors. Then came Discovery Day. Discovery Day is when the secrets come out, and the slow-motion train wreck finally hits the wall. It’s devastating, but it’s also the first day of the rest of your life. If you have ever felt isolated in your own home, or if you’ve been treated as if your worth is tied to your weight or your performance, this episode is for you. I am one hungry beggar telling another where I found bread. And I promise you: It is not your fault. If this episode resonates with you: • Subscribe so you don’t miss Episode 3 • Share this episode with someone who feels alone but doesn’t yet have language for it • Visit the website (https://wheretofindbread.us) for recovery resources and counselor referrals • Subscribe to the newsletter for deeper reflections on healing, faith, and living well • Connect with the community, you don’t have to carry this alone  Chapter Markers 03:40 – Why This Episode Matters05:43 – Early Attachment Wounds and Adult Relationships 07:14 – Spiritual Bargaining and the Search for Belonging 11:53 – Marriage Without Emotional Safety 14:06 – Loneliness Inside Commitment 16:37 – Work, Achievement, and External Validation 20:10 – Discovery Day Explained 21:03 – Intimacy Anorexia and Emotional Absence 22:48 – Making Meaning After Betrayal and Looking Ahead to Episode 3 Episode 3 Teaser In the next episode, out next week, the conversation widens.Teri is joined by her husband, whom she calls the Professor, to share what those same decades felt like from the other side. His story is not offered as defense or justification, but as context. Understanding both perspectives is essential for real recovery, compassion, and meaning-making. Episode 3 is a necessary continuation of the journey.Please share these podcast episodes with all your friends - you never know who might be hurting in silence - and subscribe at https://wheretofindbread.us.  Thank you for listening!