The Death Wish He Couldn’t Outrun | Todd Maguire | The Resilience Movement Podcast Season 13 Ep. 4

Content Warning: This episode contains open discussion of suicide, grief, trauma, and psychological injury. Please take care of yourself first.What happens when you don't deal with pain and how it eventually forces you to.Todd "Donny" Maguire is a former Queensland undercover police officer who spent two years embedded in the state's criminal underworld as Donny Wilson, living under constant pressure, surrounded by violent criminals, and on more than one occasion genuinely believing he was about to die.What his colleagues didn't know was that behind the operation, Todd was carrying the unprocessed grief of losing his partner to suicide. Instead of stopping to deal with it, he went deeper into high-risk work. What followed was a period of self-destruction, declining mental health, and a death wish that wasn't about wanting to die by his own hand, but about wanting someone else to end the pain for him.In this raw and important conversation, Todd shares how that path unravelled, the moment that forced him to see what he'd been avoiding, and why he believes psychological injury deserves the same urgency and openness as physical injury.📖 Donny – An Undercover Cop with a Death Wish by Todd MaguireAvailable now: 🔗 Todd's website: https://toddmaguire.com.au/ 🔗 Amazon Australia: https://www.amazon.com.au/Donny-undercover-deathwish-Todd-Maguire/dp/1764384407If this episode brings something up for you, please reach out. Lifeline: 13 11 14 | Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636Support the showThe Resilience Movement explores resilience not as motivation or mindset, but as capacity the psychological, emotional, and identity foundations that allow people to perform, adapt, and sustain effectiveness through pressure, change, and adversity.Hosted by Donna Moulds, the podcast features in-depth conversations with leaders, psychologists, educators, and professionals whose work sits at the intersection of resilience, leadership, identity, and human performance.Drawing on Donna’s background in leadership, workforce development, and lived experience of navigating major life transitions, the show examines:Psychological readiness and emotional regulationIdentity, responsibility, and role transitionLeadership behaviour and cultural impactSustained performance without burnoutWhat it actually takes to adapt and rebuild when life changesThis is a considered, evidence-informed podcast for people who want to think clearly, lead responsibly, and navigate challenge without losing themselves in the process.The conversations also explore how people can develop the psychological skills required to adapt, recalibrate, and grow through change, rather than being defined or diminished by it.New episodes released regularly.Follow & Connect🌐 Website: https://theresiliencemovement.com.au 🎧 Apple Podc...