The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose: Healing Relationships with Food

Foster and Cesar bravely share their radically different relationships with disordered eating, trauma, and healing. Foster opens up about living with an undiagnosed eating disorder for 22 years—marked by constant food obsession and internalized body shame—before receiving a diagnosis that finally brought relief and a path forward. Cesar shares his story of childhood hunger and neglect, and how that scarcity shaped his adult relationship with food. Together, they explore how trauma lives in the body and how healing requires listening within. If you’re sitting with a complex relationship to food or your body, whether it’s anorexia, bulimia, body dysmorphia, orthorexia, binge-eating, or a more nuanced disordered eating fed to you by diet culture, this episode is designed to be the first step in your healing process. You are not alone. In this episode: Foster reveals her 22-year struggle with food and eating—and the diagnosis that set her freeThe shocking truth of what her inner voice sounds likeFoster takes us inside the mind of someone with an eating disorderCesar shares the lasting imprint of childhood hunger including scarcity and shameThe foods Cesar gives himself full permission to indulge inThe household phrase that still haunts Foster—and how she’s learning to reject diet cultureWhat intuitive eating looks like in real life—and why Foster calls herself a toddler in recoveryCesar’s powerful reminder that eating—and healing—isn’t about rulesAlso mentioned: Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole & Elyse ReschOur episode on How to Spot a Gatekeeper! You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice memo to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail