The "In" thing.

Dear Loved One, I know its not Sunday but, I had something on my mind last night & I decided I wanted to share. I realized, I forgot who I am. Or, who I was before the pandemic happened. & I feel like ever since I have been on this quest of self rediscovery. That was also the year I & many others discovered Tiktok so I spent the majority of my time mindlessly scrolling those bite sized pieces of content and dreaming of a life unfulfilled…I lost myself in a sense. 2020 was such a…traumatic year if I do say so myself. & we just have had to move on like the s**t never even happened. I was scheduled to go into work in March of 2020 but I couldn’t go in because I was sick. After sitting at home for a few days we got the notice that we couldn’t come back AT ALL. Can you imagine, lol. I was thinking, oh, just a little week long break for a cold, nope. & then I learned I had fibroids 2 months later. Honestly, maybe due to the stress. & ever since I have been working on improving my mental health, my physical health, creating a life I love. The 1 great thing that came out of 2020 was that I discovered Youtube, (I know, I was hella late to that party but) it has given me such a creative outlet. I have always been a writer, publishing my first book in 2019 and my second in 2021, but over the years, I kind of..lost my spark and desire for the written word. So here I am, trying again. Trying to re-ignite the flame that lives deep inside of me that molds poetry and personal tales together in a way that even brings myself to tears. I’ve been so distracted with trying to grow on Tiktok & forcing myself to do the uncomfortable because that was the in thing that I forgot that THIS, was MY in thing. Apologies to my younger self. Hello again, to my future self. Welcome, Loved Ones, to the journey. With Love & Warmth, Starr Thanks for reading Letters From A Loved One! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit saunyastarrj.substack.com/subscribe