Chp. 1: When you're a chronic people pleaser

I've always been a little embarassed by how naive I was for most of my life. Not embarassed of the version that is naive. I like her quirks and silliness and exuberance for life. But moreso embarassed that she didn't know how to act appropriately around others. It became really important for survival to tune into how others were perceiving her. And that led to her building a MASSIVE Protective Armor in the form of Self Shame and Self Repression If she just morphed into what others liked about her and needed her to be, then she would be safe. If she just dealt with all the harships and difficulties by herself and didn't let others know she was struggling and suffering, she would be safe. Then she wouldn't keep being perceived as "difficult", "overly-sensitive" or "just too much to be around". This is what I was like BEFORE I became aware of all that.