The Manic Episode

Aside from the usual weekly recap and goal-setting, this week I'm digging into and recounting the events leading up to my mixed manic episode last year and the factors (social, medical, behavioral) that contributed to a psychotic break. Notice that as I speak about these events, at times I start to question myself (even gaslight myself, which I just learned was a thing), get confused, trip over my words, repeat things... these are some of my warning signs that I am triggered, and so you will hear me talking myself through that and fact-seeking to confirm what's true in my retelling of events. | ➡️CW: bipolar 2 disorder, mania, potential ADHD and self-medicating, medical marijuana, dating and trauma bonding, CPTSD, psychosis, delusions, paranoia, panic attacks, reference to depressive episode | ➡️TW: medical fatphobia, mention of weight-loss medication, mention of abusive relationship, disordered eating, mistreatment by police (PLEASE *tell me* if I need to add other trigger warnings) | Support my fundraiser for mental healthcare: https://www.gofundme.com/f/rae-survival-fund