There are benefits to psychosis - from ecstatic mystery to scary mystery

see how long I lasted making videos while sitting here because the trucks are just driving me bonkers I just saw a post on Facebook somebody saying there are benefits to psychosis and that's what I've been talking about even though I haven't really used the word psychosis that much that I recall I've been using things like map consciousness and trans consciousness to encompass that whole spectrum instead of saying mania and psychosis I say map consciousness and I say that too just to join them together because it's at least for me it's kind of cyclical it's I go into hyper perception and then I come down and when I come down its kind of hyper perceptively scary and that might be just part of it because going into that ecstatic mystery one has to come back through terrifying mystery it's sort of how things go because if one just kept going into ecstasy I feel one would eventually be in isolation because if one is in that state of profound ecstasy nobody else is there with the person unless they manage to meet somebody who's there to which you know it'll be wandering off into one's personal ecstasy and you could even think of how some people say take a an illicit drug together and then walk off into the forest and die because they sort of walked off into ecstasy together and that's not grounded in reality to feel that inner ecstasy all the time because reality is not structured in a way for us I just got a phone call and I don't know what I was saying something about the positive aspects of psychosis and I just say map consciousness for me too encapsulate the whole process and and also to sort of take away the judgment of mania as good and psychosis as bad because there are two sides of the same coin so to always want one and not the other is sort of impossible at least in my experience oh and i think i was saying people can go off into their own ecstasy and i think that's great for a period of time but it's not sustainable and it's not something that I would want to have all the time being human is about the rich spectrum of diverse feelings and experiences and perceptions not about just being an ecstasy all the time and I feel like if I was that way all the time I would stop feeling that and I think actually ecstasy is something that would change over time as well if it was becoming more sustainable as it was embodied in the neurology it would sort of be toned down because we would have more neural networks devoted to that pathway as opposed to the pathways of anger and jealousy and all the things that we have wired into us as part of our physiology because that's how we're perceiving because that's how we're speaking to ourselves and speaking about reality and making commentary on reality so that's what we bring in to exist or that's what we make real out of existence existence is existence it's already there that domain of ecstasy is already there right now we're just not making that salient for whatever reason so it's not necessarily about Oh creating one's reality with one's words and thoughts reality is this infinitely complex something that we don't really understand and it's just a matter of what we're tuning into well mainly we're tuning in to the sound of our own voice saying things that are pretty lame so we experience reality a lot of times as kind of lame and I think that's when the reasons why map consciousness comes in and tries to push us out of that to give us a sensation of something else and I actually feel it's almost like how well perception creates reality that's what makes certain things salient and that will additively and iteratively add to that perception and so I actually feel like our evolution as human beings is evolution of consciousness and that is by perception so what we perceive is what we move towards so we're moving towards this sort of ecstatic experience or other experience of these inner human dimensions that are infinitely complex we end up getting afraid of that because it's the unkno