There is no particular point to giving voice to semi random somewhat peculiar bipolar thoughts and ideas

so lately I've thought up a lot of probably 30 to 40 typed pages of much of it single spaced and they're just disjointed thoughts and ideas and insights and possibly new memes and I've been making videos on this stuff and in the last week I haven't had as much time to do that cuz i started a new job so i have a lot of to get through and i'll try my best and I don't know how coherent it will be but the point of making these videos is not as much to be coherent in a linear fashion as to just put a voice to some of the thoughts and ideas that I've had in the insights to just yeah to just put a voice to them really and they're not really intended to be anything that is necessarily true they're just sort of my own little hypotheses oftentimes when I'm getting ready for work or getting ready in the morning that's when I have a lot of insights come to me so I write them down and then after I write them down I type them up and now I'm going to translate that into video because I'm finding a lot more fun to just make videos then type up an article or something because articles usually assume that it's going to be somewhat linear and if I'm just going to have a conversation with myself I can just say whatever I want and it doesn't have to be logical or linear it just is what it is another reason I do this is because I can't remember so if I type up a paragraph and I intend it to be in some long blog post I won't remember that I typed at that particular paragraph so I won't know to put in the next logical step of that and then if I want to know how to do that I need to go and then reread what I just wrote in order to do that and so n debris reading and rereading and rereading and whereas if I just look at an idea and decide to talk about it I don't have to I'm not going to come back to that idea it's just done usually it takes a bit to get on a roll with this video making stuff my first idea that i have written down is around designing one's altruism and i believe i've talked about this before and how in mania a person often times at least for a period of time becomes very giving and altruistic and trying to put out fires wherever they go to me if a person is able to design altruism into their life it might be in alignment with the mania and something that the manic energy is trying to create which has more altruistic people at least for part of it that is actually being put into daily reality instead of just manic reality and I think that energy that's trying to create us as more altruistic worldcentric beings would be very happy about that and part of that is just thinking about what was your cause when you were in mania was there a certain thing that really fired you up and that could be something that you're actually really passionate about but in your daily monotonous life it's not something that you're concerned about but all of a sudden when this passionate energy comes in then that part of us is ignited so I had a sense of being passionate about homelessness and and that's the part two is that there's a lot of talk about this process of mania feeling like a spiritual experience now I could get attached to my spiritual experience or i could put myself in a position in life in daily life where I'm actually doing something about homelessness and in that way I'm taking what I learned from my spiritual experience and making it practical or making it a daily thing making it a reality instead of just this feeling that I had and that's a little bit of a theory I don't know if it's true if actually putting some of the elements that came to a person in that other state into practice in daily life if that actually helps or not I at some point would like to put that a lot more into practice in my own life I also feel that there'll be a time when we go from perhaps identifying as psychiatric survivors to thrivers to magic thrivers and at some point when we really become in touch with our magic we won't really feel the need to apologize for