There's Beauty In The Breakdown

When everything falls apart...Christie sits down with Joslyn Nicholson for a raw conversation about childhood loss, trauma, addiction, abuse, and the long road back to peace. Joslyn shares how Jesus met her in the middle of chaos and how healing has become both deeply spiritual and deeply embodied.This episode matters for anyone who feels stuck, spiritually exhausted, or unsure why prayer alone has not shifted their pain. Christie and Joslyn talk candidly about nervous system healing, deliverance, and what lasting freedom can actually look like.Key topicsJoslyn shares that her trauma began at age 5, when she learned her mother was dying of cancer and had to process that loss as a child.She describes how her mother’s faith shaped her early life, including nightly prayer and Bible reading, and how that spiritual foundation stayed with her even in darkness.In this episode, Joslyn explains how her mother’s death led to severe anxiety, insomnia, phobias, disordered eating, and a growing desperation to reconnect with her.She opens up about turning to witchcraft, Ouija boards, and the occult in childhood and early adolescence as a way to reach her mother.Joslyn shares how grief, dysfunction, and lack of emotional safety at home contributed to rebellion, drug use, promiscuity, and a double life as a high-performing student and athlete.She recounts a violent abusive relationship in adulthood, including stalking, manipulation, sexual degradation, and being held at gunpoint.Christie and Joslyn discuss the difference between spiritual warfare and trauma responses, and why some wounds cannot be healed by prayer alone if the root is never addressed.Joslyn explains her work in trauma-informed Christian coaching, including inner healing, somatic tools, prophetic prayer, and deliverance.She describes how she uses gentle regulation, body awareness, and Holy Spirit-led prayer to help clients move through shutdown, fear, rejection, and fragmentation.Christie and Joslyn both emphasize that healing is not just “trying harder” spiritually. It is a process of truth replacing lies, safety replacing shame, and Christ meeting people at the root.Key frameworksHealing the root, not just the symptomRegulation before revelationTrauma-informed ministry that makes room for the Holy SpiritGentle somatic work with prayer and prophetic listeningDeliverance as both spiritual warfare and inner restorationNotable quotes“Stay close to Jesus. Always stay close to Jesus.”“Healing is experiencing God where it used to feel unsafe.”“You were not made for this. You were made for more.”Action itemsIf prayer, fasting, and Bible reading have not brought lasting change, consider whether a deeper wound needs attention.Look for trauma-informed support that also makes room for faith and prayer.Stop minimizing pain just because someone else “had it worse.”Pay attention to patterns of shutdown, hypervigilance, and rumination as possible signs of unresolved trauma.Seek spaces where you can be seen, heard, and witnessed without judgment.Follow Joslyn for true trauma healing on Instagram @joslyncreates or joslyncreates.storeFull Video Episodes on YouTube @Beneath-the_Surface_podcastFollow BTS on Socials:Instagram: @bneath.the.surfaceTikTok: @beneath.the.surface.podX: @BeneathSurfPodFacebook: Beneath The Surface Podcast