this may or may not make sense, but i think they put me through all of this so i would go sit in a corner to read scripture quietly. the shook me around because they wanted me to do what they wanted me to do. which is to read scripture quietly. like tw

this may or may not make sense, but i think  they put me through all of this so i would go sit in a corner to read scripture quietly.  the shook me around because they wanted me to do what they wanted me to do. which is to read scripture quietly.  like twisting my arms.  just imagine a controlling person, manipulating you all the time, because all they want you to do is sit down to read scripture. then when you finally sit down to read scripture, they get some sort of high because you did what they told you to do.  that cathartic effect you know. this is a newer thought for me, but i now think that people who are not born in to families of pastors do better.  i think they know they are lucky too. if you are born in to a family of engineers it is not as unlucky. there is a lot of pressure for people born in to families of pastors. i saw it myself. some of those family members fall off the planet basically, and some of them think they have to aspire to be religious, but they are not actually interested in it. it is just what their family did. and they look haggard because of it. it would be better to be from a family of truck drivers