Thoughts on Transitions and Permanency

I find that as an adult, I have desperately tried to grasp for security in a very rigid way - searching for a sense of permanency in my surroundings. I have found myself prone to prioritizing a seemingly perfect, and very aesthetic home. Yet, I have found that during the period of my 20’s, it is less productive to place importance on ensuring permanency, when things are continually changing. What I can work on is my mindset, my internal sense of security within myself. I would like to focus on how my thoughts are building my life internally. I hope to lessen, externally, making my life fit a box in which I have prescribed. Most coveted in my book right now, is a sense of self that is centered, and at peace - especially when everything such as my surroundings will always change.