“I Was Afraid to Feel It” | Radical Healing After Three Children Died | Marla Grant

Brooke welcomes Marla Grant, a longtime grief guide who has lived what she teaches. Marla shares the neonatal loss she could not fully grieve until decades later, the years with her daughter Nicole and the shock of her relapse and death, and the very different work of grieving her son Ryan after suicide. Together they name why grief is not a straight line, why comparing pain helps no one, and how choice shows up in the small, daily ways we care for ourselves and each other. Marla offers three touchstones that shaped her recovery, personal responsibility, acceptance, and willingness, and a gentle reminder to talk about people’s children because silence can wound. The conversation also touches the grief Olympics, waves that return without warning, and keeping a relationship with loved ones in the present tense.We explore:Delayed grief after neonatal loss, then a classroom moment that unlocked itNicole’s life, relapse, and how everyday absence changes a homeRyan’s death by suicide and what compassion looks like for the living and the deadWhy grief is not stages, and how to ride the wavesChoice, personal responsibility, acceptance, and willingness in practiceGuest LinksMarla's Website:www.inspiredgriefrecovery.comMyths About Grief: Six Major Concepts that Keep You from Moving Forward (free book that includes free 30-minute chat with Marla)https://www.inspiredgriefrecovery.com/eventMarla's Substack:https://substack.com/@marlagrantEmail Us: [email protected] & More: https://www.traumauncensored.com/Be a guest: [email protected] Newsletter: https://mailchi.mp/traumauncensored/episode-releasesInstagram: @traumauncensoredTikTok: @trauma.uncensoredYouTube: @traumauncensoredContent Disclaimer:This episode includes discussion of stillbirth and neonatal loss, pediatric cancer and death, suicide loss, grief and nonlinearity, spiritual experiences, and practical coping.If you are struggling or worried about someone, call or text 988, the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, for free, confidential support, 24/7.