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There are older versions of myself that are addicted to suffering. I release these parts as they are not really who I am choosing to be, especially anymore!When you have been operating on trauma responses for most of your life, there comes a time on your journey where these parts of you that found comfort in chaos, felt hustling was inspiration and believed that perfection was a strength, have to be released. These parts of you are playing an old song that now feels out of tune with who you are becoming!For me, I used to claim these parts of me as badges of honour. What I have learned is that they were all based in fear, and most were responses to trauma. They did serve me once, and so it is with reverence I let them go!That is the thing, we are adaptive, we are resilient beings, and we learn to make things work in even the most trying times. These parts of me were born in those times. The more I have healed, the more I have realized these parts were just the product of wounds that were asking for attention. They were the trapped emotions and programming that had me looping in survival mode for most of my life. I am not bitter about it, nor do I hate or condemn these parts. Instead, I have gratitude and respect for all they did to support me. I can see now how they allowed me to live in the World I was in at the time and provided me some great skills and tools.Now I value peace.Peace is no longer a thing I am striving for, but rather where I live (most of my time), and that means that I have had to release these parts of me, as they are in direct contradiction to my state of inner peace. It is a process that has required me to very consciously choose peace over chaos, sometimes on a moment-to-moment basis.As I continue to choose peace, in the same breath, I thank and release the parts of me that are built for chaos. They may be strong allies to have, but they no longer get a front seat in my life. They are skills that I can utilize if needed, yet rarely chosen as a means to operate in my current Life.As I breathe in peace, I release all the parts of me that are addicted to suffering.Much LoveTara#authenticity #wordsofencouragement #affirmationoftheday #affirmation #affirmationswork #affirmationsdaily #wordstoliveby #wordsfrommyheart #awakenedsoul #WordsFromTheSoul This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taratsw.substack.com