Welcome to today's inspiration. I am Prophetess Tammy Williams with Eagle Wing Space Ministry and we are so excited that you have allowed us to come into your home tonight or today. I am thrilled of what I'm bringing to you today. I have a guest with me that's been with me with us at Eagle Wing Space Ministry for almost three years.
They showed up on my doorstep and began the deliverance process and as you know Eagle Wing Space Ministry is a ministry that we are equipers on hand equipping and delivering to help people navigate life and do it victoriously. The scripture that comes to mind today is out of Revelations 12 verse 10. But first I want to open up in prayer. Heavenly Father God we thank you for every viewer that's tuning in at this very moment in this very hour.
We pray Lord God that their ears are open to hear a heart to receive and that there's a peace that surrounds them right now in the mighty name of Jesus. Again thank you for allowing us to come into your home. Revelation 10 and 11 says this then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven now salvation and strength and the kingdom of our God and the power of his Christ have come for the accuser of our brethren who accuse them before our God day and night has been cast down. And now this is the next verse I love verse 11.
Write it down family. And they overcame him by the blood of the lamb and by the word of their testimony and they did not love their lives to death. Who I'm about to introduce to you today has overcome obstacles, hindrances, demonic influence like no other person I can even imagine. What's really amazing is you're not only going to get to meet her but in upcoming episodes you're going to get to meet her husband.
This couple's life has truly been transformed by the power of God and only by the power of God and their surrender to say I need help. We're on the brink. They were on the brink of divorce literally and you're going to get to hear real raw testimony. So if you have little children please have them exit the room.
This is not something that they need to hear right now until they're a little bit older to have understanding. Although it's up to the parents I understand that but I don't want this testimony to be sugar-coated. You need to know the power of God and what he can do when a person hits their very end. When they hit that all-time low.
When they hit that place of what do we do now. Be it on the brink of suicide, death, murder, whatever. You have heard you have allowed us over these last few months to come into your home and we brought you some real and raw testimonies from my husband Apostle Chris and myself to our son Dallas to now you're getting to see the next leg in Eagle and Space Ministry and that's Ashley Durham. She is the secretary on our board of directors.
She is a powerful woman of God but when I met her and she showed up on my porch and I'll let you tell that part of her tell that part of the story. She was broken. She was mad. She was angry and she really didn't want to meet me honestly.
Like the power of God has been amazing. It's been hard work. They'll tell you. It's been hard work.
It's been opposition after opposition just like verse 10 says but verse 11 has manifested and this is a woman of God who has given her whole self and has fruit to show from it. So many people say and they go to that altar and they say oh I've got delivered and then the next week you see them all messed up and you're like I thought you got delivered. Deliverance the altar is a start. We believe in Eagle and Space Ministry there's a process.
A process to walk it out one day at a time and lay everything out. We spent hours with them in our living room in council and deliverance and going over every single route they had and dig it up and destroy that route. So let me introduce you because I could go on and on about her because I love her as a daughter. I love her as a friend and I am in awe of how they're leading their family now.
We are honored to be able to serve them. So let me introduce to you Minister Ashley Durham. Ashley thank you for coming on. We are excited.
We know God's gonna do great things moving forward but tell us your story. Tell us from I know we could go way way back but for the saving of time start at that front porch. Well I kind of have to back up just a hair. Okay long story short.
I went going to childhood. I grew up in a very broken home. My husband and I have been married for about six years and we had numerous numerous separations. Lots of things and lots of abuse, drugs, alcohol, just not respecting one another.
Him and I had went through a very very nasty separation and when I showed up at her doorstep there was a lot that happened that led up to that. Him and I went through a very nasty separation in 2017 and we had been separated about seven months and before we had separated I want to say that I was fighting with him. The abuse and the verbal abuse was very very intense. We were both doing things that we were should not have been doing and I was fighting for our marriage but I wasn't fighting in the spirit.
I knew God but I didn't know God and I fought with him on a level just to try to get him to do what was morally right not what was biblically right. And do you also believe that there was also manipulation on your part in that the flesh of wanting to really duke it out and beat him up. Absolutely. Absolutely.
I and I literally was always the one to let's throw hands always. So him and I had separated and three weeks after him and I had separated my daughter passed away. My 23 year old and my other daughter that was 21 at the time we had went out. He was doing things that while we were separated that's his testimony and I'll let him share.
But I was trying to get even with him. Very very spotful. So I went out to a bar one evening and my daughter's went with me and we were drinking. I met a gentleman there.
We you know we took photos we Facebook live you know I wanted to make sure that my husband saw what I was doing. There was you know all manipulation to try to hurt him as much as I could. That not lots of alcohol was involved. An argument broke out in the bar.
We wound up in the parking lot. My daughters began to fight amongst one another and we got in the vehicle to leave and my daughter who passed away was in the passenger seat in the front and her and I began fighting. She started throwing hands. I was trying to you know make her stop.
I was getting onto the interstate in Knoxville and I had pulled over because we were fighting so hard I was afraid we were going to wreck. So I stopped and she grabbed my wallet and threw it out the window over the guardrail onto the interstate. So I got out and climbed the guardrail and this was this was around midnight. I turned the flashlight on my cell phone on to try to find my wallet and her and my other daughter got out and began walking down the median.
I find my wallet I get back in the car and I you know yell I don't get back in the car before you guys get killed. They get in we proceed to start driving again and my daughter at this point was very belligerent. We were both screaming and cussing and fighting and she started to throw blows again and I had just passed a car that was five lanes on the interstate and I got into the fourth lane and at that point we had just barely started traveling again and she grabbed my steering wheel and she yanked that steering wheel and I skidded over through the fifth lane and into the median and hit the guardrail and when I hit the guardrail it wrecked the front of my vehicle and blew the tire out. She started to get out and when she did and I have to be very transparent because it's part of my testimony and there may be a lot of backlash that comes at me for it but that's okay.
My last word that I spoke to my daughter before she died was you're crazy and I'll never have nothing to do with you again. Get out and she was in the process of getting out when I said that. My other daughter was her sidekick her best friend her accomplice in everything and she got out with her and began to walk and I was so mad and I was so angry. I pulled off to let them walk and immediately when I pulled off I thought okay this is crazy we've got to get a grip so I'm going to pull up a little bit I'm going to stop I'm going to let them walk and they'll see the same fun it's cold it was the night of December 28th of 2017 and they'll get in the car and we'll go home.
Well immediately when I pulled up I went up about a half a mile when I pulled up and stopped a cop immediately pulled up behind me and I said my daughters are back there I need you to go get them they said we need you to get out the car. I get out the car they began to search me I said I don't have anything on me and they said what's going on and I told them what's going on and I said they should be walking just go get them you know just go get them talk to them get my daughter to calm down so we can go home. They said we need you to get in the back of the car so I got in the car I sat there and I waited and I waited and I waited and I waited and I should never walked up and I could see the camera on the where the rear view mirror would be in a cop car and I was watching the camera and like 30 minutes had passed and I kept thinking what is going on. So then another cop pulled up and then a detective and then a few more and the detective comes and opens the back door of the cop car and he says I need you to tell me what's going on.
So I told him I told him what had happened he said well there's been an accident involving a pickup truck and I said okay and my immediate thought was it was one of my daughter's boyfriends who drives a pickup truck he I figured they called him he was coming you know to see what had happened that was my flight. So we sat there I think another maybe a few I don't know it was a few minutes that had went by but then I see more cops and all these people standing in all these cop lots and the detective comes back and he opens the door and he says I'm sorry to have to tell you this but your daughter was in an accident and she did not make it and at that point I didn't know which daughter and I said what and he said again I'm sorry to tell you but your daughter was killed and if it's any consolation she was killed instantly and he said it was Tricia and he said we're going to get you home now and we're going to give you a card on the accident and all that and you'll you'll have people to get in touch with. I blacked out I came to my other daughter and her boyfriend was standing there with some family and more cops and they fixed my tire and a gentleman drove me home that was there at the scene and my husband and I had been separated for about three weeks and I immediately blamed him for her death. It isn't ironic that we always have to have a scapegoat because we can't process when you don't have the Holy Spirit and you don't have God in you you still have to blame someone yeah and it pushes you further from even calling on God because you don't have a relationship with him as it is so as you all can see so far there's now placing blame it was fueling the three week separation would you say that that was a huge instrument on how bad it got.
Oh yeah that drove me that the hate I was so angry at myself with regret and the condemnation and blaming myself it turned instead of me carrying all of it I needed like she said I needed a scapegoat so I put it on my husband and so at that point I literally began to plot murder. I plotted his death and a lady that he was seeing at the time I plotted their murder and I thought about my children how they were going to live who was going to take care of them. I mean I had everything thought out I had numerous ways on how I was going to take them out and so thank God it never happened but in the midst of my hate it caused me to be very numb. I was a very non-parent.
I got up I took care of my children and the best way at that time that I knew how I fed on my provided to the very robotic very robotic didn't spend a lot of time with them and my my dinners consisted of alcohol and hanging out with men and women whoever I could find the attention for him and whoever I knew that would hurt him the most is who I saw the attention in so I became very much a Jezebel at that point. So in the midst of all that decided to take him to Child Support and I was going to nail it to him in court. So we go to court and we had been there all day long and now this we had been separated at this point about six months and we went to court and I was sitting in court been there all day and I had just had a knee injury and I just had surgery three days before I was on crutches stitches and bandages and I was very hurt very much in pain. I go outside of the courtroom well I looked back at him and he was having a panic attack and he whispered I'm sorry and when he did that wailed something up in me that made me even more angry so I'd go out the courtroom I'm out there crying balling and I feel him grab a hold of my shoulder and spin me around and when he did I felt my hand you know draw back to hitting and this is where God intervened I heard the audible voice of the Lord.
Come on now and I heard it just as plain as I sit in here talking and me giving this testimony and I heard him say in the sternest voice the deepest, manliest voice I have ever heard in my life let it go and I thought instantly I thought I don't want to let it go. Come on I don't want to let it go and then I thought what did I hear that and then I heard it again calmer and slower let it go and I promise it was just like somebody standing right beside me and all I could do was just look and I thought I'm crazy I'm crazy and if anyone we hear the voice of the Lord we automatically think we're crazy yeah until we heard it. I was crazy and then I thought I didn't recognize it at the time but I thought I'm not crazy what was that and then I then it was stern in me as he was talking I have no idea what he was saying to me I know he hugged me and I just stood there and and crying and then I thought was that God? So long story short now we had got back together I thought okay I'm gonna let it go and I told him I'm taking you back to see if you really mean what you say this time for some reason I need to see one more time if you're gonna be the man you say you want to be.
Come on we've been together for about six months things were perfect. He worked every day he held down a job he provided it was kind of like a honeymoon. Yeah it was a honeymoon phase the kids were happy but we were still drinking we were still using marijuana. We thought we were doing the best we could well then about six months later his sister had invited him to Eagle Wing's Faith Ministry.
I had to work on a Sunday so he told me him and my daughter at the time that was about 13 maybe um him and her was gonna go to church. Okay I got to work so it's you know it's cool. Well they went to church with you all then went to I think a revival or something that evening and boy they come home and they were filled their cuts were running over and all I heard for a whole week was about this church and how 11 they are and how he felt the presence of the Lord and in a major mad didn't it. Well it did be kind of push your buttons.
I had my mind made up that even though things were great between him and I that God wasn't for me because of everything I had went through from my childhood to previous marriages I had been married two other times you know before him and I've just I had went through a lot so I played the victim at the time and just thought well the Lord's not for me. I know who God is but you know some people are just born to go to hell and that's a lie straight from the pits of hell. Amen. That is a lie.
Nobody I don't care what you're saying is nobody. Come on. Nobody is intended to be them for hell. So he asked me please go to church with me next Sunday.
Okay I'll go. Well they just so happened to live next door to his sister and his mother at the time so we were at my mother-in-law's house on a Friday and her husband and Apostle Chris and some friends next door and stuff were gonna go to Winter Jam. She had decided to stay home for whatever region which we know now that it was God ordained. I was taking a sabbatical that day.
Yeah you took one. So I was kind of being caddy and I said why don't you introduce me. Oh yeah come on he said I'll introduce you real quick. I said I'm just kidding.
It's okay really it's okay. So he said no come on I want you to meet him before church Sunday that way you'll have a better feel because I don't I used to not do a stranger's very well. So he knocks on the door. Prophetess Tammy comes to the door welcomes him looks at me and says well y'all come on in for a minute.
So we step in and he introduces us and Prophetess Tammy says how are you? And I had the try to be respectable but street girl attitude. I was I'm good and she said something to the fact of are you? No I said I think I said how's that working.
Well you asked me twice how if I how if I how I was and then you said so how's that working for you? That's when the the goal you know so I immediately started crying and I'll never forget she walks and she lays her hand on my arm and you said can I get real with you for a minute? And I said yes and she said God wants you to know that it's not your fault about your daughter's death and you need to stop blaming yourself. And I immediately looked at my husband because he had went to church the week before and I thought he had told and talked about it and I said did you say something and he was standing and he said no.
So then I was like okay there's something to the Lord. There's something to me. So then it brought me back to the place of hearing that audible voice six months prior and I thought okay God's dealing with me. He really is dealing with me.
So my husband says do you all want to talk and she's like yeah like you know are you comfortable with sitting here and talking and I'm like okay yeah. So he leaves he doesn't pick our children up and he's gone well we talked and we talked and we talked seven hours of talking and I talked about everything my childhood my relationships my marriage my daughter's death my relationship with my other kids and there was no magical words she just listened. I asked questions here and there and just listened. So that's where we're going to stop for right now.
As you can see that's the day their journey began and her journey began. If there is something on there that you can relate to something that perked your interest you want to tune into the next episode because we're going to continue this conversation of this is when it starts getting hard. You know you can see how much demonic influence there was in her life and she has come to know how much demonic influence there was and how unworthy she felt because she had an identity crisis and that's what we address in the next episode is how Satan can destroy someone's identity rob them from their identity and almost try to rob them from their purpose and destiny in Christ Jesus. You don't want to miss the next episode because I'm telling you this now the story is really going to be getting good because what I said in scripture and they overcame him by the blood of the lamb and by the word of their testimony and they did not love their lives to death.
This is a woman who has sold out to God does she buck? Yep does she get mad? Yep does she have to crucify her flesh daily? We all do but let me encourage you it doesn't matter what your story is.
You can be victorious in Christ Jesus. Thank you for joining us today in today's inspiration. Tune into the next episode. Thank you.
We love you. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May he make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you and may he lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. You are loved by us but more importantly Jesus loves you.
God bless. I appreciate y'all watching our show this evening. If there's anything, anything whatsoever that you have heard that has spoken to your heart and you feel the need to either rededicate your life or turn your life over to Jesus. I encourage you to reach out to us.
We will be more than happy to speak with either on the phone or via email or however you can reach out to us and it's easy we can say a prayer for you. Jesus says to Nicodemus that you must be born again to enter into the kingdom of heaven. So I encourage you to turn your life over. If you need to rededicate that is also to turn your life back to repentance is simply turning from where is the direction that you were going to a new direction.
You're no longer the old person that you are but you become a new person through the gift of salvation. So I encourage you to reach out to us at EagleWingsFaith.org. You can click on the tab, contact us and you can put it through the website or you can email us straight ewfmchurch at gmail.com and we look forward to hearing from you. God bless you and we will see you later.